Well, sorta, or more like incodsiderate. I need to say it. Well, this is more than one, but being fairly anonymous helps.

The really quick rundown it's me, Lady A, Lady B, and it is my fault. Oh, and love, in case you didn't guess.

In case any of you didn't know, I'm not a big talker. I don't go out and do things. These past few days my leisure has been reading books and watching Anime and various other things not too far from those. I wouldn't say you'd see my face in the dictionary under melancholly, but maybe as a "see also."

After failing at college for a bit, my GPA is just under failing and is a bit next to impossible to work with, I've been going to a Technical training school. That's been nice. I don't view a Medical Assistant as a very good job, but it is better than retail. It's a long trip, so I've been carpooling with Lady A. She is a casual five minute drive from my home. We are both rather laid back. I've always had difficutly carrying a conversation for too long, in general, but once we get one going, it is rather enjoyable. It makes the drive go by fast. She is not comfortable with me visting her home. I mean going inside. I think she hates it, but she says "It's too dirty". She is still living with her parents. I haven't made much effort to bring her to my home. I'm the one with the vehicle. We went out on a "date" once to see Eragon, and that went well. She said, "We should do something like this again." Still, I'm not sure what to make of it. I'd like to go out with her, but I'm not sure what to do, persay.

Lady B, is someone at the Tech school. She is shy too, but I don't care about that much. She was recently... seperated (boyfriend), and me and her were "hooked up" by mutual friends to make here happy. We've only really talked for a few days. Still, she is... I don't know how to put it. She is the agressive one. I'm not sure if she is acting like this because of her recent break up. Add their child to the mix, and I am VERY hesitant. I don't mind listening to her, but she is going a little fast, for me, on this dating thing. There is also the fact that we live an hour, or so, apart. She is about an hour away. I really haven't visiting her yet, but we'll be spending some time in the mall Saturday. Yes, all three.

Don't think I think ill that she has a kid, but I haven't been in any romantic realtionship, period. I really don't know how to act. Personally, it does put me on alert. Of what, I am not entirely sure. I guess that is as best as I can do, for now.

At a quick glance, I would say Lady A over B, but a few class mates know B and not A. Now for the real part that makes me feel like a bastard. I went out with A shortly after my friends at the school tried to hook me up with B. My friends (well the two relevant ones), B, and myself are in the same program. A is in a different one, so they really do not know her. One friend knows what I've done, but he is pushing for B. I don't feel much B, but she is agressive. With A I feel like I'm the one with the inscentive to do anything, but I'm unsure how to.

All in all, it really has pushed me out of my comfort zone and has caused me to do things I have not done before. I'm sure it is all for the better, but I really don't want things to fall apart. Time is really the best way to deal with it, but I would like to sort this out as quickly as possible. I am just clueless on how to do it. I would like to bring A around, but I think she is the same way as me when it comes to going places, very few. I, myself, never went out just to go out. I always went out for one reason and then returned promtly home.

I was watching Hannity and Colmes today which is a news program on channel 26. They talked about how producers of a new movie called Hounddog are in an argument with the program's hosts involving its content. I went to IMDB and confirmed that the movie does exist. The movie in question is Hounddog and its spreading contraversy throughout the country. In it, 12-year-old actress Dakota Fanning, which you probably know from many of her movies; Charlotte's Web, Man on Fire, Trapped, War of the Worlds, Uptown Girls, Hide and Seek, etc plays a sexually abused girl who finds solace in listening to Elvis hence the film's title.

The real thing that is making people outraged is that in the movie, Dakota is seen partially nude and also in a rape scene. The film's producers claim that the scene was shot above the shoulders with her wearing a body suit with her mother and a welfare worker in the room. Yet in any case I just find this sort of thing to be disturbing. Even if there's no actual illegal material in the scene like the shit you find from the darkest corners of the web studies show that childstars who do sex-related scenes have troubles in life later on. So if it has the same effect as what happens to all those real kids who are sexually abused; them being seriously messed up as adults then why is it legal?

Many can argue that numerous childstars who played in taboo subjects, not even the sex ones have gone on to live rich and healthy lives. Even if this was the case, it doesn't change the moral issues. Being a huge movie buff I've seen many movies dealing with the depraved subject of sex involving children. I don't condone such actions of course. The following is all the movies I can recall seeing involving such material with descriptions.

L.I.E.: A teenage boy. Howie who lost his mother in an accident on the Long Island Expressway ends up lost in a world where no one seems to understand him. He ends up befriending a pedophile. In the movie we see Big John, the pedophile looking at a nude photo of a boy from the waist up. It also deals with a boy sleeping with his sister without protection, Howie's friend being a male prostitute to older men among other aberrant situations and Big John showing an explicit porn movie to Howie also asking him how long his penis is. Its theatrical version in 2001 got an NC-17 rating. It was released in an uncut and R-rated version although the R one only ommits three sex scenes all with consenting adults. in either case both versions are NC-17 deserving in my opinion.

Mysterious Skin: Joseph Gordon Levitt plays a sexually abused teenager who sells his body to men. He ends up befriending another boy who believes he was abducted by space aliens. In the movie we see Joseph receiving oral sex, giving anal sex and even him being raped anally. Also graphic sexual language including dialogue involving abuse and the intiation of sex between minors some of which is off-camera therfore strongly implied.

The Woodsman: Kevin Bacon plays a convicted child molester who is on parole trying to get his life back together. There's disturbing talk of the molestation acts including sexual dialogue, other aberrant discussions and very awkward scenes where Kevin Bacon follows around young girls, one of which leads to a chat on a park bench where he asks one if she'd like to sit on his lap.

Capturing the Friedmans: A documentary that profiles Arnold Friedman who pleaded guilty to sexually abusing numerous boys through his class at an elementary school along with his son who took part in the acts. Horrific subject matter along with some discussion of the sexual abuse that occured from victims.

The Butterfly Effect: A pedophile father puts his daughter and her friend in a basement in front of a camera and tells them to take off their clothes and kiss. The scene is repeated several times with one of them with the child actors being implied nude. The story in the beginning causes the older version of the girl played by Amy Smart to kill her self when Ashtong Kutcher reminds her of the abuse years later.

Running Scared: Cameron Bright ends up in the hands of a pedophile couple who along with two other abducted kids, are forced to put on an implied video of them engaging in some sick act. Cameron himself almost suffocates after the couple tries to kill him until his friend's mother arrives. She ends up finding a collection of CD's with kid's names on them before shooting the couple.

Donnie Darko: Jake Gyllenhaal burns down Patrick Swayze's home and firemen who respond to the blaze inside discover he's the leader of a child porn ring when they locate his materials.

The Night Listener: Robin Williams befriends a sexually abused boy who's dying from AIDS. There's talk of his ordeal of how he's blindfolded and lead into a basement where he was videotapes by his mother and father. This includes a reenactment where nude men and women drink and laugh while we see a blindfolded boy in his underpants in the middle in front of a camera.

Hard Candy: Although it doesn't directly involve pedophilia, it deals with the subject matter as a teenage girl beings a sick, sick, sick tortorous process against a man who she is convinced brought her home to his home to abuse her.

Mystic River: A preteen boy is taken by men posing as cops and is implied abused in a basement. Later discussions relate to the abuse in saying ''they had their fun'' and ''he was sexually abused as a kid.''

The Heart is Decietful Above All Things: I didn't finish watching this one since it didn't interest me but I did see disturbing scenes involving childstar Jimmy Bennett being put into one bad situation after another. There's an implied mention that he was sexually assaulted. But mainly he's just severely, severely neglected which is just as damaging when you think about it.

Bastard out of Carolina: A man forces a 13-year-old into a kiss followed by him dragging her into a room, him fumbling with his pants and her dress followed by an downward view of him moving into her, him on top and you see the whole scene actually occur. This includes audio of her grunts and his. Also you see how the girl is helpless and how much suffering she's going through.

I feel while this is a hard subject to talk about, it must be so we don't forget that these atrocities occur all the time. Basically, I'd like to hear what you all have to say about the latest in these types of movies. Even if the sole reason of such abuse to take place is to add to the plot, I feel its completely unneccesary. You see, couldn't these screenplay writers come up with something else that won't sicken us to our stomachs? Couldn't they find another way to make their stories work out? I'm not totally against it as long as it presents itself in another form. This includes films like 12 and Holding, The Ice Storm and A Home at the End of the World. In those films, its a girl coming on to a man, and kids finding themselves with other kids when no one else seems to care about them.

In that sense, in those movies I feel its somewhat okay although still not entirely moral. But if you're going to put a young, innocent girl into an acting scene that she has to act as if she's being raped then I say what's the point? The film is premiering at the Sundance Film Festival and I hope it doesn't do well. I have not seen the scene so I can't completely judge it but I do feel that any sort of scene like that can not be tasteful in any way shape or form like the producers try to sell it off as. Dakota is said to be Oscar deserving in this role. I say, can't she get an Oscar another way?

Ok I just received an email from my debate coach. I am now signed up to go to a useless tournament this weekend. The problems are 1) I don't want to go to this one. 2) I know very little about this topic. 3)I hate this topic. 4) I really am not that great at debate so why was I chosen.

Ya maybe not the best reasons, but I would prefer to avoid embarressments this weekend and really just avoid it. I gotta get out of this and so far all I have thought of is saying I have something better to do. Really there are no advantages to me doing this, only disadvantages. The only reason they are even doing this is to give some of the debaters going to Emory some experience on the topic. I am not going to Emory for I don't qualify, SO WHY ME!

PS I am not feeling great, maybe that would be an option if I work it correctly.

It look good to any of you guys? Transformers was a bit before my time, so I can't tell if it follows the story or what not, but it looks pretty interesting.

I never made love before.

I don't understand. Why men said every girl got different vagina?

I mean, from lemons or erotic stories, the authors describe each vagina (girls were same age) differently. Even at same age, vagina also got differences?

At same age, why some vagina larger or tighter than others (still virgin)?

Anus got got different depth or sizes?

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Hey everyone.

It's Gabumonfurry's birthday today! Be sure to pass along your best wishes if you see him around.

*wheels out a big tasty cake*

Well, I just realized what an intesive semester I have ahead of me and will no be here often anymore. This place is a fun spot but it's one time consumer I'll no longer have the ability to please.

Best wishes to all.

my uncle died sometime ago...i just got the call about fifteen minutes ago...still waiting for further notice....................................

I got a little pissed at life today so I thought I

I've had this theory for several years now, but I have yet to get it right. Perhaps members of the DaD can help in Cali's experimentation.

The theory states that the 'Perfect Soda' can be achieved not by a mix of ingredients, but by a mix of different sodas. The trick is balancing it out so that the stronger of flavors (Ginger Ale, Dr Pepper) have a lesser percentage while the weaker flavors (Cola, Root Beer, Lemon Lime) have a higher one, and they all play with each other, not against.

I usually do this when I have a few bucks burning a hole in my pocket, and nothing better to do. :P I'm weird like that.