I'm alone.

[Ryan]

Yes. I know. Who doesn't? We are blinded by the pure ignorance and Arrogance of others.
Because my ignorance is being blissful and blind siding me with no cause what so ever.

If you are ignorant, then wouldn't you be ignorant to ignorance?

So. I hate people. But I hate myself for hating people. I hurt myself mentally knowing that I am not going to achieve anything by this.

You think too much, you're not sadistic. Sadistic means you'd enjoy this activity.

further my studies and interests on design and art.

called mentally restarted on this forum.

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So what do I do?

It's not easy to go and "go talk to someone random" I wish it where that easy. But it is not.

It IS that easy, that's how I made my first friend.

change myself, my attitude, feelings, and emotions towards others.
So help me. what should I do? What can I do? Explain. I am thinking to deep into this manner. So.... Why not?

Once again, too much thinking.

If none of those comments helped, then isolationism fixes everything here. Hardcore isolationism, throw everyone and everything out of your life.

further my studies and interests on design and art.

Focus every last bit of energy on this, nothing else. But, that's my style. I can't wait until I leave the world. :)

Magus....Or eme. I cant go up to talk to someone random. My Autism makes it hard to communicate with others. then again what isnt hard these days. I dunno.

Thanks for the advice guys. Oh btw guili. I dress in black and whit at times. I like stripes but I don't own any stripe shirts. So yeah. Not much on clothing details.

(Rambles off a bit because tired.)

Finally, get a grip on yourself please. Theres no real nice way to say this but you really have to suck up and enjoy the good parts of life. You're human, you have your own personality and ways of entertaining yourself and you're perfectly competent of finding something you like and using it as a hobby. Take your artwork for example, you must enjoy that or else why go to the trouble?
In my eyes, you're a normal guy of the world; to my knowledge you haven't broken any laws or bulldozed half of my house so thats pretty okay with me. You just have to be a bit more tolerant of people in the world and learn that it's good to stop and think before you blurt out something that could really hurt someone. You say you don't care, but now that you're alone it seems very clear to me that you do care.

Of course. I hate people. It doesn't meant I don't care for them. I don't care about life is what I think I was trying to say yesterday. People in general are okay. But have different satisfactory. Sucking it up isnt easy done than said. There is no human that just *Sucked it up* The only thing i could *suck it up* Is a wound. Though thank you. You just told me I am normal. Although normal isnt something people use these days because nothing is normal it is just used as a key term to express abnormal actions.

Thank you. (Being serious) You didnt say anything hurtful. Though you could of read my last quote to save the trouble of repeating what my parents have said. xD