08-28-2004, 12:51 AM
It's rarely that simple.
First off with my family if I moved out the whole house would fall to shit. Admittedly even though I can't stand most of these people I've got some sort of perverse loyalty that won't allow me to completely abandon them.
Then there's the co-dependant factor, I don't have it but everyone else does. Quite a few of these idiots would come over to my place because they need a shoulder to cry on which everyone knows is a stupid idea considering I'm not a good listener and more often then not will tell them point blank that their own stupidity caused the problem so quit trying to project their faults to other people. (Which is what most of my cousin's and one of my aunt's do best.)
As for the job I have at least some dignity left and there are certain things I just won't do and not even daily contact with complete morons will make me lower my standards anymore than they already are. The best I can do for now is to keep looking, keep applying and hope that something will open up that I can stand without feeling that my previous situation was much more tolerable. There's no point in putting yourself in the position where you actually looked back at what had passed less than a week ago and actually feeling, "what was I bitching about? That was paradise compared to now!"
BTW I turned 22 as of June 13th.
First off with my family if I moved out the whole house would fall to shit. Admittedly even though I can't stand most of these people I've got some sort of perverse loyalty that won't allow me to completely abandon them.
Then there's the co-dependant factor, I don't have it but everyone else does. Quite a few of these idiots would come over to my place because they need a shoulder to cry on which everyone knows is a stupid idea considering I'm not a good listener and more often then not will tell them point blank that their own stupidity caused the problem so quit trying to project their faults to other people. (Which is what most of my cousin's and one of my aunt's do best.)
As for the job I have at least some dignity left and there are certain things I just won't do and not even daily contact with complete morons will make me lower my standards anymore than they already are. The best I can do for now is to keep looking, keep applying and hope that something will open up that I can stand without feeling that my previous situation was much more tolerable. There's no point in putting yourself in the position where you actually looked back at what had passed less than a week ago and actually feeling, "what was I bitching about? That was paradise compared to now!"
BTW I turned 22 as of June 13th.