Thanks for being a mom...BITCH!

[Misty]

Wow...I had such a good time tonight hanging out with Roran and going out to eat...as soon as I come home, I change the way I act into not caring and kinda depressed. Before I hung out with Collin today, we went to parent/teacher conferences which was a bad idea. My grades aren't that good in 2 classes. I can't concentrate anymore because my mind is always on stuff that happens at home. That's all I can think about. Now my mom and her boyfriend aren't doing so good (w00t, Roran..he better leave!!!) and she's about to kick him out. I just tried explaining to my mom that she's the reason behind my bad grades. Before I even finished my sentence, she interrupted me with 'That's not an excuse' and blah blah blah. Everyone else understands that except for her.......why? Because she doesn't want to hear it. My dad understands it perfectly because he had to deal with her when she became an alcoholic and knows what it's like. She yelled at me earlier before we went to conferences because I was trying to explain something else to her and she bitched at ME because SHE has the bathroom door closed with the radio blasted while doing her hair...and I fucking cried.

She called me just now and told me that she can't take her boyfriend anymore...he lies, he tells stories that don't add up, he smothers my mom and she hates it...he watches every move she makes...he probably doens't trust her...he's a bad influence because she's drinking more...

Anyway...I try as much as I can to not be at home because of everything. My mom doesn't trust me which makes it hard on me because I can't talk to her about anything. When I try talking to her about why she pisses me off, she defends herself then bitches me out. Whenever I'm in a good mood, she ALWAYS has to ruin it...I'm a hermit crab when it comes to home. I'm always in my room to avoid contact with my mom and/or her boyfriend...Roran calls him a pedophile...I think he is...lol. I'm just so sick of everything...she ruins everything for me...

The only time I'm happy is when I'm either at school or with friends. My friends are my family more than my mom is family to me. She acts like she doesn't give a shit about anything. I'm going to be happy when I can finally move out...