06-05-2011, 03:04 AM
So I've read bit about your whole situation, which is unfortunate, on some of your other threads. I can see why you would feel how you do.
So first things first. What should you do? Don't kill yourself. You will probably still feel suicidal. It will take time to get over everything. A lot of time. Look to possibilities of the future and don't drown in what is happening now.
Moving on to the counselors you have seen. You say you've seen 11 of them...that's a lot. What time span did you see them for (one or two meetings is not going to be enough to help, it will takes months, maybe years)? A lot of time treatment for psychological and physical abuse takes a lot of time (sometimes years) to undo. It does not seem likely that having seen 11 counselors that one had enough time with you to get treatment far along.
I'm sure for a while it won't seem like they or helping or understanding but they have a lot of stuff to work around to figure out how to treat you best. You need to find one you like and stick with that one so they can know what is going on without others trying to treat you.
You say they have failed to help you, but didn't mention how. Deciding how they didn't help might help you identify those who might be better at it.
This place is great to jot down what you might need or are looking for but professional treatment is the way to go, and it needs to be consistent and long term to do any real good.
So first things first. What should you do? Don't kill yourself. You will probably still feel suicidal. It will take time to get over everything. A lot of time. Look to possibilities of the future and don't drown in what is happening now.
Moving on to the counselors you have seen. You say you've seen 11 of them...that's a lot. What time span did you see them for (one or two meetings is not going to be enough to help, it will takes months, maybe years)? A lot of time treatment for psychological and physical abuse takes a lot of time (sometimes years) to undo. It does not seem likely that having seen 11 counselors that one had enough time with you to get treatment far along.
I'm sure for a while it won't seem like they or helping or understanding but they have a lot of stuff to work around to figure out how to treat you best. You need to find one you like and stick with that one so they can know what is going on without others trying to treat you.
You say they have failed to help you, but didn't mention how. Deciding how they didn't help might help you identify those who might be better at it.
This place is great to jot down what you might need or are looking for but professional treatment is the way to go, and it needs to be consistent and long term to do any real good.
Believe in yourself! Not you who believe in me, not me, who believes in you.
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