02-20-2005, 04:36 PM
Yeah, it was funny tonight because she keeps telling me we are getting married, and I told her I wouldn't marry a drunk. Now I admit I drink on and off, but she's been drinking a lot lately, anyway her choice. She still insists on us getting married. She says when I'm 21 and shes 20, so like 2 years. I just laughed at her.
I don't get her, because like I've said, she says stuff like that, and how we need to go find a new job TOGETHER. It's always together, but I don't want to be the filler boyfriend equivalent (without benefits) and then just pushed aside when she decides she likes some guy.
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Update 02-20-05 11 am
I decided to add this to one post rather than make another.
I just had the most intense dream about her, it was really, really, freakin intense. We were hanging out, swimming in a pool and then I went underwater, really deep under, and she came down after me and then floated right down next to me and I wrapped my arms around her. I leaned my head against hers and she turned to me and then I kissed her, a really sensual, intense kiss, which we held as we floated back up to the surface. We broke the surface and I woke up, breathing hard and was like "whoa, that was awesome." I have had few dreams that real feeling and so intense.
I don't get her, because like I've said, she says stuff like that, and how we need to go find a new job TOGETHER. It's always together, but I don't want to be the filler boyfriend equivalent (without benefits) and then just pushed aside when she decides she likes some guy.
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Update 02-20-05 11 am
I decided to add this to one post rather than make another.
I just had the most intense dream about her, it was really, really, freakin intense. We were hanging out, swimming in a pool and then I went underwater, really deep under, and she came down after me and then floated right down next to me and I wrapped my arms around her. I leaned my head against hers and she turned to me and then I kissed her, a really sensual, intense kiss, which we held as we floated back up to the surface. We broke the surface and I woke up, breathing hard and was like "whoa, that was awesome." I have had few dreams that real feeling and so intense.