12-22-2004, 06:16 AM
okay that one bit about the suicidal lines are more from my thinking and way of doing things. i am a huge follower of the scortched earth policy and that was a refference that if my life got so dark in an endless spiral that there wasn't a way out i wasnt going to let anyone get off. in other words i'd take friend and foe with me kinda like a race-wide mass suicide that kills every human being. lets just hope i never get there. it also expresses how i percieve things in that any action thats disrupts my so called "peaceful" state of mind i consider an attempt to murder me as my sanity in on the rim of reality and maddness. it makes me a very dangerous person when i have to put up with stuff that i dont enjoy. in fact my saness is only because i get about 8 hours of freetime a day. otherwise like i said i'd go balistic and try (and most likely succed) in taking everyone down with me. i hope this explains the "poems" a bit better.