08-17-2004, 10:37 AM
Casey Ray Wrote:girlfriend or friends? :\
Well, it was because of a friend, but a friend that I was so smitten with that I couldn't have imagined life without him, so it might as well have been a girlfriend. Yeah, I had a crush on him. Big time.
Of course, he ended up changing a lot over the course of the first semester, and I had a hard time dealing with it. Meanwhile I was getting screwed over in a lot of my classes, and was too blinded by my depression and confusion to see that I really just needed to get the hell out of there. By the time I came to my senses, I'd been there for two whole years, and saw that it would probably just be best to ride out the rest of the time there than to try to transfer.
I like to think that I've learned from that whole experience, but I think I still make decisions with the same kind of motivations. Unfortunately I'm caught up in one right now, and I don't know how it's going to end. I'm trying to remain optimistic, but it's tough.