I dont know what to do anymore.

[RyanCruey]

Everything seems to be pushing back on my with a force thrusting me back into the pit of spikes. I cant seem to think much straight anymore. I dont know weither i want to actualy quit living and caring or move on. There is so much i want to do and know. But the things i want to do there is no way to do any of it. I cannot grasp the conept of living in this happyness i love to spread around. i dont know weither or not am i happy or not? I am not happy for the bare reasons that to me for me there is really no reason to be happy. I wish to smile and have a GF or BF again but i am not sure if i like both anymore. I mean i do its just hard to find that "Special" Someone that everyone has in there mind to think over the bad and good stuff. I dont know anything much anymore except the bare logic of what the life i live has to offer but that aint much. I am feeling dead on the inside. I dont know anymore....Help i guess.


QUICK NOTE FOR YOU DOUCHE BAGS. I AM NOT CONTIPLATING SUICIDE GET IT STRAIGHT.