I don't know.

[DragonMasterX]

This isn't a rant, but I really am lost here. My first college year hasn't been so good, I haven't fully accustomed myself to studying at this rythm yet, not fully at least, but I did a lot better than my first cuatrimester I suppose. Now I'm having second thoughts.

My career is Accountant, so in my first cuatrimester I had to study Introduction to Economy (I did good in Macroeconomy, so so in Microeconomy), Administration's Principles (My best subject at the time), and Mathematics I.

I failed Maths because I lacked study time, and I blew Economy because I got too nervous in the Final Exams (They were spoken theories).

The second cuatrimester: Contability I, Social and Economic World History, Sociology.

I'm doing good at History, and simply great at Sociology, but Contability is way too hard for me to pick up now. Depression has made me skip many classes and now I can hardly grasp any concept, my motivation for this subject is next to nill and I'm really worried about it. I really want to give up this subject and just take on History and Sociology to secure I pass them.

I really, really want to give up Contability I this year, and re-course it the next year when I'll be sure to pick up from the first class, I know my parents don't need convincing because they support me, but I really can't, I don't know how to convince myself. My first exam for Contability I was pathetic, I didn't even read it and just went home as we switched from theory to practic. I didn't even study for the second chance, I told my mother I would try hard at the second exam which is the 29th of this month, but I don't have motivation, no mood for studying, I don't even want to go to the classes. I know I'll fail, and I don't want to kid myself with an ideal that just isn't true to me.

I love assisting to History and Sociology classes, they are fun, and at least I know what I'm doing when I take notes or underline my books, Contability, well, I don't exactly have trouble in the practic when we're exercising, not even when I don't know the concepts because I'm a fast learner, but really, I don't feel like practising at home, or reading the 200 page book about theory, I'm tired, I know I'm near the end of this college year and after that I'll be done and start my summer job; it's as mom says: "C'mon it's the last sacrifice!" but I really am tired, and just don't want to do this anymore this year. Ugh.

Sounded like a rant at the end, sorry for the emoness. But what should I do? Should I just... I mean, I know I've given up on Contability I already, but should I officially declare it?

[Frisk E. Coyote]

I say... yes. Sometimes its best just to quit and start again, but this time you'll know what mistakes not to make. It would be so much better than holding on to something you have already given up on internally. This way you can focus on the two subjects you're doing great at. You might as well try and excel at them instead of keep poking around with the one you've lost all hope in.

You've gone quite far, most probably spending the majority of your life going to school to get an education. You're nearly at the end of it, all you need is just one more push and its a whole new level for you. If not... you can always try again. Work hard, play hard, rest hard. Laziness is in everyone, even if they don't know it. You just need... uh... interest, as hard as it sounds. I myself HATE Maths, therefore I have no interest in the subject, and I'm doing mediocre at best. You just have to find a way that'll make the subject appeal to you, like secretly doing it for the pretty classmate/teacher!

[DragonMasterX]

Thanks Ray. Maybe it's time I just make it a resolve and stop kidding around. May only be two easy subjects, but I really want to pass them. Next year I'll be cluttered with repeated subjects but sigh, I don't know of any other solutions at this moment.

[Ghostiemon]

Indefinetly, you're wasting your time with this subject, You could be using this time more effectively doing whatever it is you do. If you continue to take the class without showing up or trying then it's not going to look good with the lecturers. You seem to have a real aptitude for History and Sociology, it would be a shame if you're depression spread to these subjects.

...But thats what I would do, it's up too you.

[DragonMasterX]

Well, to be honest, I had never thought it the way you said at that last part. I don't really want to feel emo with 'story and sociology, not while they are so cheaply easy to understand and study for. Maybe I should ponder the pros and the cons again. Thanks.

[Frisk E. Coyote]

I really don't have to remind you to masturbate to release "emo-energy" and stress, right? I do it nigh constantly and I'm a pretty happy person! *twitch* Despite having SO much homework every day... and going to bed at 4AM, waking up at 6:30AM and starting classes at 8:40AM...

God I'm tired.

[UnknownH]

Maybe you wouldn't be so tired if you didn't constantly jack it so much. ha ha

[Frisk E. Coyote]

You have a point there. But I perform better, sleep better, wake up better after I've liberated and killed millions of my potential children from their fleshy silo.

[tigerlily]

You have a point there. But I perform better, sleep better, wake up better after I've liberated and killed millions of my potential children from their fleshy silo.

Now that's just plain creepy. O.o;

[UnknownH]

Ewwww... And I've heard much worse before.