Friends

[UnknownH]

I thought he was just being the opposite of you.

[Baby Cyndaquil]

Not to worry because you are not alone, I had no friends anywhere, all I got is co-workers and family and not even my family share my taste. The only friends I got is right here on the computer because if I get into an arguement with them, all I need to do is to block them with my MSN, Yahoo, ICQ, Gmail or AIM

[Zephyr of Darkness]

I thought you'd know better by now to know that what I say can't be taken seriously, except for this:

Though I noticed that, there was some truth to it.

Now I know the first part is true

Especially with people that hurt me and betray me.

Nice try UnknownH. Everone saw that. jk

Sorry, but you're confusing me with sb else. Long ago, there was some girl here he indeed wanted to fuck, but she's long gone. It might seem the other way round, but I was the one who had some interest in him. He played along, but he was never interested in me.

There's nothing WRONG with you Zephyr, you just have to find your niche. What're your interests? Don't you know of anywhere around you can go to find people who share them?

Say: art- videogames- manga- deep talking about life. yeah, here in the net. Basically, I have little time with my Univ. I'd have to enter places with people with those interests when I graduate. The second and third are quite difficult in here (some time ago, I got an invitation from an online group for manga lovers to meet, but ended up in nothing. But with the other two I might have some chance)

I'm 100% sure somebody would want to fuck you....

Yeah, thanks. I guess it oughtta end with 'sb I like and trust' which would be the necessary conditions.
But you know, those are the things I say when I'm depressed , which happens often.
Hmm....looking at all your posts, I realize you have a high tolerance for people that's not compatible. I think one of my problems for not making friends is not being that tolerant.Since I'm used to being alone, I rather not have any friends at all than taking people I don't appreciate and don't appreciate me. And the other is being surrounded by motherfuckers. I usually feel that people ignore me or underestimate me. For example, you know I have some sense of humor, but for some reason, whenever I try to make some joke I get looks like saying 'Did that jerk say something?' While whenever a guy says some stupid joke everyone guffaws. Damn sexists sons of a bitch.
And then I have the other way round: like a professor I liked talking to, very smart and all. We once talked long and hard and when we finished, he told me 'Nice talking to you'. I went again to talk a week later and we had another chat. Another week later I wanted to talk to him again and he excused himself for being 'very busy' and 'this is my working time, I'm sorry'. Later my course with him finished and I tried to keep in contact by mail but he never answered.
Or, another jerk that was with me in first year (she's now 2 years behind) I remember that back then she was all the time with a sausage dog faced girl and didn't pay much attention to me. Well, you can say, she was more friendly with the sausage dog faced girl. later we met a lot in the corridors and talked. Some time ago, we met in the library. I was at the computer and the others were occupied, so she started talking to me. She saw the mineral water in my bag and asked me for some. I asked her to bring a glass and she poured my water 2 times. then she went off and grabbed the water from the bottle in the library (She could have done that from the beginning, don't you think?). She continued hanging around me and asked me when was I finished.
-In a long time-I answered.- Why do you need to use the computer for?
-Just a couple of short mails.
-Ok, go ahead, use it. Don't worry, I'm paying(Just to get rid of you already when I'm writing)
OK, a couple of short mails. How much time ya need? 5'? She took THIRTY MINUTES to write them...and that cuz I told her to hurry cuz "I have bussiness to do" (if not, maybe and hour or more) all the while lecturing me about being pure at heart and loving God.
Some days later, we met at a queue, and she greeted me with a gesture that in another context would have been of contemp. I approached her and asked 'What subjects are you taking?' She TURNED HER BACK at me and talked to some people that were there. We stayed there for several minutes more and never looked at me again.
Some days later, she met me again, at the library, me at the computer, with a big grin. 'How ya doooooo!!!!!!' There were space this time, and she sat at a computer at my side. 'Hey, tell me, how ya do this?' she asked me.
-Now I'm busy.-I answered dryly.
-Of course, of course-she said nonchalantly.
Fortunately, I haven't seen her since.

Well, is it my imagination, or these people just use me?! Man, I sure am surrounded by crap!!

That's why I consider people in the net my friends...at least they laugh at my jokes, listen to me and don't use me (of course, there is some exception...) and try to confort me when I'm sad. And...that I can just be myself.....I don't need to hide that I'm virgin, or that I like a guy that doesn't exist, or that I draw erotica, or...many more things.
Thank you guys....thank you for all. And I'm sorry for telling you all this....whew.

[UnknownH]

Uh No problem I'm here to listen and help if I can
(and that one thing will keep going on for awhile still I suppose.)

[Harie Krauzer]

Yeah... I ussually have ways of avoiding people who annoy me, but I always can't... and I'll second the I'll be here too.

[The Anti-Wisemon]

And Anti-Wisemon, I always knew you were a dirty Nazi.

Please. I'm full on Big Brother Ingsoc. Nazism is chump change compared to the glory of Oceania.

In some senses, he is. At the very least, his economic policies create a greater separation between the weak and the strong.

Considering how National Socialism is almost the DIAMETRIC OPPOSITE of libertarianism.

And must you bring politics into everything? It was a fun thread right up until then.

[UnknownH]

Big Brother is watching me? Well Big brother can kiss my ass, I hate being spied on.

[The Anti-Wisemon]

That's it. Thought Police bustin' in.

[Anonmon]

Anti-Thought-Police Knights, protectin' our turf, punk!

Zephyr, have you been on #digilegacy, irc.blitzed.org? The people there are great, and sometimes even meet IRL. You could probably make a friend or two if you want to.

[SaberGatomon]

Zephyr, I know how you feel. Though I can count many more years than you, I have a feeling that we are siblings in spirit. I was overlooked in school as well and to some part, still am today. My friends are almost exclusively online and I really only associate with relatives. Of the friends I had at school, most are either dead or living far away, so I don't associate with them! Though I know it doesn't help right now, I'm sure life has a plan for you, you've just got to find it! If you'd like to chat about this on YIM, add me to your friends list and you can always chew on my ear and I promise it won't be a deaf one!




SaberGatomon said it, and I'll say it again!