07-31-2006, 12:07 PM
THis is her poem:
what she deserves
i never knew how she really felt
she waited far too long to tell me
yet had i known the feelings she felt
things would be so much differently
i would not be where i am right
crying my heart out because of the words she spoke
i know at the moment
she hates me so much
she wishes i was dead
she says
to her
I'm as good as dead
and every time i hear something else
it cuts me deeper
deeper than any knife ever could
but i can't hate her
i still love her
she helped me through all the bad times
she always gave me reasons to live
and never
not once
did she fail to amaze me
everything she did was beautiful
just like her face
the face of an angel
I've never been a good friend
and this i know
I've never known how to be
no one ever showed me
that is
until she came along
i should have picked up quicker on the things i should have said
and the things i should have done
but i was blinded by the fact that i was in love
and i can't rewind time
and fix my mistakes
i guess i must learn
from another heartbreak
we had so many arguments
but there we're good times in between
and that's what made it all worth while
the first day we met
we knew there was something between us
and little did i know that things would end up like this
she was my best friend
she was someone i loved in more than just 1 way
she was my other half
my soul mate
and as much as she may not think of me as the same
I'll always love her
and even if she's not in my life
I'll always think of her and wish her the best
because that's what she deserves
she never deserved the pain i caused her
she never deserved to hear the things i said
i should have never made her my only hope
but she was the one who always kept me strong
she kept me wanting to live to see another day
but now what do i do
who do turn i to
all i can do is cry
which isn't how i usually am
it takes alot to break me down
but she knows just how to do it
she knows how to make me scream
she knows how to make me cry
so this is me
spilling out my heart
asking for forgiveness for all the things I've done
but only to remind her
that she's not perfect either
as much as i see her as perfect in every way
i know she's not
but only because of the things she said
and the way she broke me down
and now all i can do is hope
that someday
she'll see
how much she really means to me.
This was my poem:
I Should've Known
by Dreamer Girl on Jul 28
I just wanna tell you
I will remember you
When I go to the park
And I will smile not
shed a tear
You all wanted to hurt
me and cause me to get
depressed
But I'm laughing in your
face because you can't
I've grown too strong and
walked through the dark for
too long to let you get to
me
I'm going to make it without
you even though I will miss
the times we shared
I will never see you again
Any of you and if I somehow
do
I will pretend you don't exist
You're all dead to me and you
know what?
When life beats you down and you
have no one else
For once, don't come crying to
me
Because I'll pretend you're invisible
You're both black snakes and you
deserve each other
You both tricked me and used me and
I want to say that I loathe you both
I can't say the amount of anger
I had for one of you yesterday
It was so much and I just wanted
to slice you open
You can call me morbid but you like
playing games with my heart and my
mind
And you don't know the damage you've
done
Or how you cut me apart inside
I gave you more than I ever had to and
still you cut me just the same but even
deeper every time
So I want to say that I hate you and you
are as good as dead to me
In my eyes, I buried you already and you're
not alive anymore
Do not beg my forgiveness, don't call me on
the phone or text me or IM me on the comp
Because I will not forgive you and you
are a waste of my time
I just wanted to tell you that
I wish you the best when
you're rotting in hell and I hope
the Devil makes you feel at home
Because really that's where you belong
I just wanted to tell you with warmth in my
heart to go to hell and "F*** YOU!!"
And I meant that so sincerely from the
heart
This will be the last time you hear from me
And I hope that when you hear my name
You break down and cry bitter tears and
feel utterly ashamed
I tried to help you and give you my all
until I had nothing left
And now you're out of my life so I'm gonna live
and I'm gonna move on because you're not worth
my tears and none of you deserve my heart
So so long and have a good life in purgatory!!
By Melissa V.
DEDICATED TO KIRSTEN AND AMAR, I HATE YOU BOTH AND YOU DESERVE EACH OTHER YOU SNAKES!!JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU "F*** YOU!!"
what she deserves
i never knew how she really felt
she waited far too long to tell me
yet had i known the feelings she felt
things would be so much differently
i would not be where i am right
crying my heart out because of the words she spoke
i know at the moment
she hates me so much
she wishes i was dead
she says
to her
I'm as good as dead
and every time i hear something else
it cuts me deeper
deeper than any knife ever could
but i can't hate her
i still love her
she helped me through all the bad times
she always gave me reasons to live
and never
not once
did she fail to amaze me
everything she did was beautiful
just like her face
the face of an angel
I've never been a good friend
and this i know
I've never known how to be
no one ever showed me
that is
until she came along
i should have picked up quicker on the things i should have said
and the things i should have done
but i was blinded by the fact that i was in love
and i can't rewind time
and fix my mistakes
i guess i must learn
from another heartbreak
we had so many arguments
but there we're good times in between
and that's what made it all worth while
the first day we met
we knew there was something between us
and little did i know that things would end up like this
she was my best friend
she was someone i loved in more than just 1 way
she was my other half
my soul mate
and as much as she may not think of me as the same
I'll always love her
and even if she's not in my life
I'll always think of her and wish her the best
because that's what she deserves
she never deserved the pain i caused her
she never deserved to hear the things i said
i should have never made her my only hope
but she was the one who always kept me strong
she kept me wanting to live to see another day
but now what do i do
who do turn i to
all i can do is cry
which isn't how i usually am
it takes alot to break me down
but she knows just how to do it
she knows how to make me scream
she knows how to make me cry
so this is me
spilling out my heart
asking for forgiveness for all the things I've done
but only to remind her
that she's not perfect either
as much as i see her as perfect in every way
i know she's not
but only because of the things she said
and the way she broke me down
and now all i can do is hope
that someday
she'll see
how much she really means to me.
This was my poem:
I Should've Known
by Dreamer Girl on Jul 28
I just wanna tell you
I will remember you
When I go to the park
And I will smile not
shed a tear
You all wanted to hurt
me and cause me to get
depressed
But I'm laughing in your
face because you can't
I've grown too strong and
walked through the dark for
too long to let you get to
me
I'm going to make it without
you even though I will miss
the times we shared
I will never see you again
Any of you and if I somehow
do
I will pretend you don't exist
You're all dead to me and you
know what?
When life beats you down and you
have no one else
For once, don't come crying to
me
Because I'll pretend you're invisible
You're both black snakes and you
deserve each other
You both tricked me and used me and
I want to say that I loathe you both
I can't say the amount of anger
I had for one of you yesterday
It was so much and I just wanted
to slice you open
You can call me morbid but you like
playing games with my heart and my
mind
And you don't know the damage you've
done
Or how you cut me apart inside
I gave you more than I ever had to and
still you cut me just the same but even
deeper every time
So I want to say that I hate you and you
are as good as dead to me
In my eyes, I buried you already and you're
not alive anymore
Do not beg my forgiveness, don't call me on
the phone or text me or IM me on the comp
Because I will not forgive you and you
are a waste of my time
I just wanted to tell you that
I wish you the best when
you're rotting in hell and I hope
the Devil makes you feel at home
Because really that's where you belong
I just wanted to tell you with warmth in my
heart to go to hell and "F*** YOU!!"
And I meant that so sincerely from the
heart
This will be the last time you hear from me
And I hope that when you hear my name
You break down and cry bitter tears and
feel utterly ashamed
I tried to help you and give you my all
until I had nothing left
And now you're out of my life so I'm gonna live
and I'm gonna move on because you're not worth
my tears and none of you deserve my heart
So so long and have a good life in purgatory!!
By Melissa V.
DEDICATED TO KIRSTEN AND AMAR, I HATE YOU BOTH AND YOU DESERVE EACH OTHER YOU SNAKES!!JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU "F*** YOU!!"