07-30-2006, 01:47 PM
today i went with family from out of town and my mom
and i had went in this dollar store and when we had moved,
my ex who was my bf at the time had come with us
and stayed for a week to help us move in and all of that
and i had gone to the mall with him before he left
and we were looking through some stores
and we had gone in the dollar store
and found these two matching rings
one was a celtic symobol
the triquadra
and his was a sun symbol
and they sort of matched
and he bought them for me
he wore the sun one on his ring finger and
he proposed to me, there and then and
i said "yes"
and he slipped that ring on my finger
and i remember feeling so happy
he had promised to buy me a real ring when we got older and he got a good job
and i went there to day
and it came to me, that memory and thought
and i wanted to cry so much but i didnt cause
i know i have to forget him and move on but that memory hurt so much cause its like
i was so happy and sure then we were already married
in soul
i was so sure he was the one and he felt the same
he was gonna marry me
and now i was standing there
and all i could think was
im here alone and he will never marry me
he wasnt my one and all the heartache and pain i endured
doesnt matter anymore because this memory brought it all back
it made my heart ache and the tears form
and its like, "damn"
that was so long ago but that memory was so beautiful
one of our memories echoed in my mind today and it made
me soo sad, it feeled me with grief and without warning or
reason it filled me with grief cause i dont love him anymore
and he doesnt love me and we're nothing now but once we
were and it was one of the beautiful things you could see
and i had went in this dollar store and when we had moved,
my ex who was my bf at the time had come with us
and stayed for a week to help us move in and all of that
and i had gone to the mall with him before he left
and we were looking through some stores
and we had gone in the dollar store
and found these two matching rings
one was a celtic symobol
the triquadra
and his was a sun symbol
and they sort of matched
and he bought them for me
he wore the sun one on his ring finger and
he proposed to me, there and then and
i said "yes"
and he slipped that ring on my finger
and i remember feeling so happy
he had promised to buy me a real ring when we got older and he got a good job
and i went there to day
and it came to me, that memory and thought
and i wanted to cry so much but i didnt cause
i know i have to forget him and move on but that memory hurt so much cause its like
i was so happy and sure then we were already married
in soul
i was so sure he was the one and he felt the same
he was gonna marry me
and now i was standing there
and all i could think was
im here alone and he will never marry me
he wasnt my one and all the heartache and pain i endured
doesnt matter anymore because this memory brought it all back
it made my heart ache and the tears form
and its like, "damn"
that was so long ago but that memory was so beautiful
one of our memories echoed in my mind today and it made
me soo sad, it feeled me with grief and without warning or
reason it filled me with grief cause i dont love him anymore
and he doesnt love me and we're nothing now but once we
were and it was one of the beautiful things you could see