07-25-2006, 07:11 AM
I'm so depressed.I don't know what to do anymore. It all feels so worthless, my talents and abilities, my intelligence and my so called "beauty".I'm so tired of everything, of love and I dont know if I can be a whole person again. I just want to die. My life feels so meaningless.Everytime I think I'm getting better I get worse and I don't know what to do.I feel so empty inside and like nothing I do matters.I'm tired of crying and hurting on the inside all of the time.I just want to give up, I'm so tired and I don't want to cry anymore. I am the Dreamer Girl with the broken heart, the one who can never be fixed. i should just die. theres no point anymore.my heart, is too battered and my soul is weary. My writings dont matter anymore.My poetry is all the same and my stories are nothing. I can't decide what to do anymore and I'm just a tired person with no hope anymore.Only Lonely Gabu was the one keeping me alive a week and a half ago and he was the reason I was living, i was gonna committ suicide and i was having a panic attack about 4 days ago.He calmed me down but im still.... alone inside. I just wanna die.