New Year Fucked. AGAIN.

[DragonMasterX]

I still knew that I could've seen him one last time in the last five days of his life. I last saw him on Christmas. That's why I grieve. Most people the chance to see people before they die, yet I was not given the chance to see him till he did. Isn't that a reason to feel like this?

It will neither bring him back, you are just hurting your own emotions. If you can't focus the good times with him and stand strong, you are as good as well fucked with a never ending, annoying scar. Which like Zeph said, will fade with time, but it will never go away; yet, it doesn't mean you can't sub-due the pain recieved from it, like all scars.