Bored and Alone

[Shadowknight]

I know the feeling of not being able to trust a friend, I haven't exactly had the best run with them either. But this isn't about me, sounds like you're just stuck in a rut, nothing's happening, all your friends are running off and doing their own thing. You just need to find something to occupy yourself while you wait for college to end. And about your friend, if you don't love her back just tell her that. I can't gaurantee it won't ruin the friendship but it'll be better than having her think you love her back. I'm sure you'll pull through this fine. It'll just feel like forever.