04-21-2006, 01:07 PM
occ: YAY!!! another hellsing fan!!!ic:
"you've already answered that yourself, unless your holding back. but sense we're, no i'm, ignorant, the only thing i can say is...that...i'm sorry."
i put my head down unable to look at him anymore.
"but i can't do even that. once again i would be selfish to do so. anything i do to try to help blue would be selfish. if theres one thing i've learned is that power can only bring harm to those i love, so i give up looking for it. but i can't ignore what i have, its a part of me. but, the thirst for death. its funny. i'm being persicuted for something i was born with. so what do i do about it. or are you talking about a different kind of thirst for death. but i'm clueless as to what it is. and then you may be talking about another thirst for power, too. i'm stabbing into the dark, where the killer and blue is, with a knife. i've already wounded blue deeply, and the killer is waiting for me to finish it. if i do nothing, he dies of his wounds. if i do something, i risk killing him. but heres the killer; its selfishness. so if i do something to try and help i'll end up killing him. and sense i can't, won't, do a thing about it he'll die anyway. about the only damn thing i can do is pick up the pieces and move on. unless, of course your holding back something vital. and then, perhaps not. or you could've been waiting for me to relize all this. but, once again, i can't do shit about it, can i? why am i asking you? i already know i can't do anything, lest it be selfish. there is no redemption for those so far fallen from the light and with him, the unforgiveable sins."
[i]We have no use
For the truth
now
"you've already answered that yourself, unless your holding back. but sense we're, no i'm, ignorant, the only thing i can say is...that...i'm sorry."
i put my head down unable to look at him anymore.
"but i can't do even that. once again i would be selfish to do so. anything i do to try to help blue would be selfish. if theres one thing i've learned is that power can only bring harm to those i love, so i give up looking for it. but i can't ignore what i have, its a part of me. but, the thirst for death. its funny. i'm being persicuted for something i was born with. so what do i do about it. or are you talking about a different kind of thirst for death. but i'm clueless as to what it is. and then you may be talking about another thirst for power, too. i'm stabbing into the dark, where the killer and blue is, with a knife. i've already wounded blue deeply, and the killer is waiting for me to finish it. if i do nothing, he dies of his wounds. if i do something, i risk killing him. but heres the killer; its selfishness. so if i do something to try and help i'll end up killing him. and sense i can't, won't, do a thing about it he'll die anyway. about the only damn thing i can do is pick up the pieces and move on. unless, of course your holding back something vital. and then, perhaps not. or you could've been waiting for me to relize all this. but, once again, i can't do shit about it, can i? why am i asking you? i already know i can't do anything, lest it be selfish. there is no redemption for those so far fallen from the light and with him, the unforgiveable sins."
[i]We have no use
For the truth
now
