Listen up.

[Bee]

The following is a true rant, only some names have been omitted to protect the guilty.

This isn't necessarily directed at anybody, but if you feel that twinge of regret in your conscience when you read what I have to say, then you BETTER listen.

I have a friend, as many of you do. You may know him as Psycho Backlasher. I know him as Ray.

Today he broke down and blew up at me because of people treating him like a whore. Using him, ignoring his wants and needs for their own. I've known him for years, through this very website. I've seen pictures of himself and his family, I've talked to him over the phone. He's literally, on several occasions, pulled the gun out of my mouth and shown me the reasons to keep going. He's like a brother to me, and it makes me sick with anger at how people would just use him like a condom. Some people think all he is is an endless machine for furry yiff bullcrap. I know you should trust people as far as you can throw them if you meet them on the internet, and that's why he's one of only a small circle of people I call my friends. I ended up being HIS shoulder to cry on tonight, and I've had enough of it. He may not stand up to the pressure, but I sure as shit will.

Things recently got tough for him. Tough in a way I understand all too well. I did the only thing I could. I sent $140 dollars(roughly 80 British Pounds) to his boyfriend, to purchase a laptop for his birthday, to help ease his burden. Others joined in on the effort as well, and to those who did, we applaud your generosity. It arrived two months late, but it got there, and it made his life just a little more better. To the people who mindlessly fuck him, what have YOU done to help? You've made him hate the one thing he USED to love.

He held me together long enough for me to find the woman who completes me. Nothing I can ever do will feel like enough thanks. And some of you may read this and mock me. I don't give a rat's furry little ass. Some of you may stop talking to Ray altogether. Good riddance. It's not that difficult. We all know how friends work. It's give and take, not take and take and take until he yells at you and you get offended.

I may not have the sexual preferences to give him an RP that he would enjoy, but god damnit, I'm there for him when no one else can be. Some of you should be, as well. I don't blame his boyfriend for any of this. Hell, He's a close friend, too, and he agrees that Ray should stand up to the bullshit.

I'm not asking you to do a damn thing. But I'm TELLING you, that if that's how you treat someone you consider a friend, well, then that's the reason why Furries are despised. And as a furry, I despise you as well.

I'm sick and tired of working my ass off, to come home and try and spend time with friends, only to hear him complain about some mary sue fuckhead who's only interest is in some one-dimensional character he threw together for a onetime fling, and the other player got too attached. I have an RP going on with him, that's been going for FOUR YEARS. And earlier today, when I tried to get it working again, he ended up chewing me out about how some of YOU don't seem to get the fact that he's a human fucking being, and that he wants to do what he wants from time to time.

If he's busy, don't fuck with him. If he doesn't want to fuck, go watch some porn or something. If he does, be DAMN sure to thank him afterwards and DON'T treat him like a whore.

any and all responses along the lines of "LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE!!" will be deleted. I ain't playing with assholes anymore.

[DragonMasterX]

Huh. He didn't say anything about this to me. Man, when will he ever learn not to bottle stuff up? Told him like a gazillion times. Oh well, I guess groups are better than particulars, and the positive stuff about this is that he had you as a shoulder. I'm relieved for that one detail.

On the other hand, talking through him is hardly going to solve problems, much less make things better, Brandon. If you want Ray to stand up for himself, then, properly speaking, he should do it himself, and if he can't do it, then help him, but don't do what he has to do by himself, or else it's highly likely he might fall into depression based off his inability to deal with serious issues. I'm not saying you're wrong in speaking your mind, but you should let Ray run his own mouth before you chip your opinions in. You've no idea who might be reading this, and if it makes things harder for Ray in the long run, then you've not helped at all.

The reason why I'm probably sounding cocky or like a smartass is because Ray is as good friend to me than he is to you, I've known him even longer, and if he was hurt at some point, by someone I don't know, and he didn't tell me, he must've had his reasons, but now that I've learned of this, I don't want to take chances in him getting harmed anymore than he already is.

You're a good friend, but you need to be his strength, not his guts.

[Frisk E. Coyote]

Oh no, Bee... You were druuunk when you put this up, so I understand you were pretty emotional at the time, and I appreciate everything you've said to stand up for me... but I have to stand up for myself. I'm not very good at it, and I've let many people take advantage of me in the past, but I have to learn how to do it myself... I just wish that people wouldn't take so much offense to me having an opinion as they did yesterday.

The majority of them are from FA, InkBunny and SoFurry, not from here, and 1/10th of them aren't furries, but people from old forums I used to be a member of, like a now defunct Harry Potter forum, and a Freakazoid forum two years back, so it's not just furries, it's people in general. I'm very open and supportive toward strangers, so they in turn open up to me and trust me with their emotions... they just end up forgetting I have them myself. It's my fault though, I think I come off as an indestructible RP Machine, so they treat me like one. I don't know if I ever acted like a slave though... I know I'm naturally submissive, but I don't think I ever told them it was okay to mistreat and neglect me. Maybe that came naturally...

And Boss did tell me not to bottle anything up because it's unhealthy... I just didn't really have anyone I could talk to when I needed the affection and reassurance and appreciation the most.

A handful of the people who are my 'clients' got to see a side of me I wish no one had ever seen before, but I am very thankful you were there for me to cry on when I broke, and I apologize for splashing you with all that drama and stress. This is why I chose to be a cartoon character as a Furry! Everything's fun when one's a toon, a toon can never die, or be permanently hurt, and no matter what happens (lest they be dunked in DIP from "Who Framed Roger Rabbit".), they always bounce right back up to take more of life's punishments. I mean, I've heard that one maxim; "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger", and thought "Y'know, Wile E. Coyote has almost died more than anyone I know...", and figured, "Hey! I'll be a cartoon! Cartoons are strong!"

Not that anyone I RP'd cared about that. Everyone wants the character I made just for them, to suit their personality, their turn-ons, their desires. No one wants to hear about their backgrounds, or their likes and dislikes, or even care about their personalities. I'm left with one-dimensional husks of people with stereotypical labels like "The Jock" or "The Nerd" or "The Slut". I hate making characters who are shallow like that, and I hate playing them. But I play as them almost every day because some girl has a fight with her parents, or some guy is trying to cut himself because the girl he liked turned him down, and I cannot say no to those people. I don't think I even know how to say no. It's a word I have to practice saying. I can't always say "yes" when asked if I'm alright.

Things will be different now, I promise! No more being stomped on and dragged around to do things I don't wanna. There will no longer be any breakdowns like this. I'm going to cultivate a pair of steel balls and tell people how I really feel when they make me do things I don't feel like doing.

[Takatofan1986]

Ray, I'm sorry you are having a rough time.

I don't know if you remember me or not but we were friends a few years ago. I stopped making an attempt to talk to you after a while because I thought I was being annoying. (I tend to be down on myself too.) But If you ever need to talk about anything, I'm here.

[SnK]

I'm very sad, angry and sorry to hear that this happened. This just proves that this world is festered with manipulative, opportunistic and pathetic microbes who will prey, feast and take advantage of people who will serve their selfish wants, desires and lusts till the last drop.

Sometimes its because of those equivalent kind of people--- The miserable, attention depraved and sorry bloated manatees that they are made me doubt as well if being generous and friendly online would be all worth it. Though, this is just me from my experience with pent up rage and disappointment.

Though, thankfully, there a genuine few who really value and truly sees you as a true friend and the same time, as a person, a human being with emotions; Something a lot more precious and meaningful than being treated as a commodity that will either be discarded, ignored or replaced once you can no longer cater what they want.

[UnknownH]

Sorry that, that has happened. But I've always treated you with the annoyance and violence that an annoying sidekick/lackey deserves. heh heh
I actually don't RP much myself.

[Frisk E. Coyote]

Hey Takatofan, no, I remember you alright. X3 We used to have fun RPs, right? I wondered where you went for a while, you weren't annoying, but then we haven't spoken in a long time, and I forgot about you until you popped up again. How've you been? I hope you've been well. Talk to me again sometime, we have a lot to catch up on, when you're free. ^ ^

And thanks for your words, SnK. There are people out there who are indeed just as you described, but it isn't their fault for taking advantage of me, it is mine, for not being smart enough or strong enough to stop them from doing it in the first place. I fed them hopes of being pleasured and and made blissfully ignorant of their problems and strife for a short time, and in turn, I became somewhat of an addiction. Like you though, I wish that they at least thanked me more for what I do for them, and that they weren't ungrateful for me taking short breaks for food, or to rest my hands, or to do something else entirely before I lose my mind. I am thankful for people and friend who genuinely care for us. I do what I do because I care. Maybe I should be a little more careful about who I care for from now on... Thank you for making me feel a little more appreciated, SnK. ^ ^

Yeah, you know I wubs woo, Unknown! X3 Your violence only solidifies my erect phallus! Seriously though, thanks for taking the time to post here, I appreciate it a lot.

[SnK]

There are people out there who are indeed just as you described, but it isn't their fault for taking advantage of me, it is mine, for not being smart enough or strong enough to stop them from doing it in the first place. I fed them hopes of being pleasured and and made blissfully ignorant of their problems and strife for a short time, and in turn, I became somewhat of an addiction.

It is those kind of people that makes me hateful and enraged.

---

There are people out there who are indeed just as you described, but it isn't their fault for taking advantage of me, it is mine, for not being smart enough or strong enough to stop them from doing it in the first place. I fed them hopes of being pleasured and and made blissfully ignorant of their problems and strife for a short time, and in turn, I became somewhat of an addiction.

It is those kind of people that makes me hateful and enraged.

[UnknownH]

Yeah. I saw you were feeling bad so I said that so you'd be happier again.
Because a happy person bounces higher.

[Frisk E. Coyote]

Yeah, SnK, the world would probably be much better off if people like that didn't exist. Or at least changed and started thinking of others.

*Snicker* Especially if you drop them from the top of a 75 Story building, huh Unknown? :3