oh- your new here, and I've never met you before... but already youre helping me!
before anything else, I would want to give you my welcome!
Welcome to the DaD! I hope you enjoy yourself around here! and if you need someone to open up too- we're always here for you- (unless we're offline), but we do our best!
wait- you all have to CALM DOWN! I'm not suicidal, okay!?
firstly, it isnt as horrible as it sounds, what I meant by "cut" was prick lightly, (I need some blood samples every now and then, I found an old microscope, and I've been studying my blood every 2-3 hours, hence, I need to "cut" myself to produce blood. it's nothing serious, honest!) if I
were in extreme anger or pain, I seldom hurt myself- I usually:
(without the DaD: )
*talk to charlie
*take deep shallow breaths
*talk to charlie
*cook (no- really. I'm not that good though)
*talk to charlie
*examine my blood
*talk to charlie
*masturbate (this has the best effects)
*talk to charlie
*break something (not always)
*talk to charlie
*look at pictures (not good, sometimes makes it all worse)
*talk to charlie
*take my anger out on inanimate objects (works well)
*sit outside in the Terrace, where it's freezing enough to calm me down
*play with charlie
*hug charlie
*snuggle charlie
*bathe charlie (weather it's needed or not, he doesnt seem to mind)
*XXX with charlie (when it all goes wrong)
sigh... my arms and hands are covered in bandages, but looking at my blood cells is fun... to me at least, I understand if you find that unreasonable, but to me, its like reading a book. (when I was about seven, I wanted to be a Biochemist/alchemist/scientist/biologist/naturalist, I wasnt like other kids...)