Its weird. How one minute you feel like you are in a world that is completely against you and you have no say in it. But then you feel better about yourself then you just wanna go around and hug a lot of people realizing how much happiness you have been missing out in the world. I am having one of these moments every single day for the past three to five weeks.
At first it was just a simple week. But then I looked at some good porn. (And I admit to every single on of my friends who ask me "Do you look at porn?" I always go "Yeah, I look at cartoons, furry, real life, sometimes shemale, all that good snuff." This does sometimes creep them out but then they shrug it off and go "At least you admit it.") but I saw this one picture that made me realize. "I need to be more open with people. Try to start a relationship with someone." I have been trying for quite a while. Talking to people and telling them about myself. Show them that I care. Even my friend nick talks to me more often. Although I am not that perfect, but then again who is? Last week I did show some emotion. Yesterday I showed anger. Kishy and I decided to play some modern warfare 2. Normally I don't get angry at a game. I get angry at the person I am playing with. But this time I was ranting about it. I did today also. So I decided it was time to lay off the fps for a while. But aside from this I have been great lately.
My education is getting odd though. Hard to find out any of my grades with all of the shorten schedules going on. But with all that going on last week it leaves this whole week open. But with that I hope to find out good news instead of bad. I have been tolerating a lot from my brother, even started being nice to Chris and do his dishes and switch his loads of laundry for him. He was thankful but I was tired. Still am tired. But thats okay. Because I feel energized enough to be happy for today. My weekend was kick ass because my brother wasnt home all weekend. :D so now I am extremely happy about that. I even got to sleep on the most conformable couch ever. EVER! Music, I have been listening to a good bit of it. Trying to think up of some ideas. But let me tell ya.
The character Sarah that I made for that fanfic, I can't stop thinking of her cheating on the protagonist while he is undercover and the protagonist falling for 625. I dunno why. Maybe because I like 625. The one chubby character that looks all to damn cute with anyone. Next to Zangoose. Although I dont think Zangoose is as chubby as everyone makes it out to be. But what ever floats they're boat. But yes. I am thinking of doing that for the story. Making the main character fall for 625 while undercover. I find it cute! (I is a sucker for cute things. Like happy tree friends porn. Its just so damn cute its addictive.)
Though yesterday I do have to apologize to my friend Markus. Cause I was tired and I didn't give him much of a shot for convo. But I am sure he will understand. He is a good person. So I hope to get forgiveness from him. I also seem to be posting a little more happy jokeful posts lately I hope people don't mind. Being happy alot is really awesome! I mean I havent been this happy in a while! I hope to stay like this. But ya know something? I have been enjoying my porn a lot more lately than normal. Weird. I actually tried cheering up Azu yesterday. I was that happy! Hm happy is good.
Well guys. This is how I have been doing a lot lately. So enjoy porn! Awesome thing ever.
btw. Cute guy in my sig. Just sayin.
At first it was just a simple week. But then I looked at some good porn. (And I admit to every single on of my friends who ask me "Do you look at porn?" I always go "Yeah, I look at cartoons, furry, real life, sometimes shemale, all that good snuff." This does sometimes creep them out but then they shrug it off and go "At least you admit it.") but I saw this one picture that made me realize. "I need to be more open with people. Try to start a relationship with someone." I have been trying for quite a while. Talking to people and telling them about myself. Show them that I care. Even my friend nick talks to me more often. Although I am not that perfect, but then again who is? Last week I did show some emotion. Yesterday I showed anger. Kishy and I decided to play some modern warfare 2. Normally I don't get angry at a game. I get angry at the person I am playing with. But this time I was ranting about it. I did today also. So I decided it was time to lay off the fps for a while. But aside from this I have been great lately.
My education is getting odd though. Hard to find out any of my grades with all of the shorten schedules going on. But with all that going on last week it leaves this whole week open. But with that I hope to find out good news instead of bad. I have been tolerating a lot from my brother, even started being nice to Chris and do his dishes and switch his loads of laundry for him. He was thankful but I was tired. Still am tired. But thats okay. Because I feel energized enough to be happy for today. My weekend was kick ass because my brother wasnt home all weekend. :D so now I am extremely happy about that. I even got to sleep on the most conformable couch ever. EVER! Music, I have been listening to a good bit of it. Trying to think up of some ideas. But let me tell ya.
The character Sarah that I made for that fanfic, I can't stop thinking of her cheating on the protagonist while he is undercover and the protagonist falling for 625. I dunno why. Maybe because I like 625. The one chubby character that looks all to damn cute with anyone. Next to Zangoose. Although I dont think Zangoose is as chubby as everyone makes it out to be. But what ever floats they're boat. But yes. I am thinking of doing that for the story. Making the main character fall for 625 while undercover. I find it cute! (I is a sucker for cute things. Like happy tree friends porn. Its just so damn cute its addictive.)
Though yesterday I do have to apologize to my friend Markus. Cause I was tired and I didn't give him much of a shot for convo. But I am sure he will understand. He is a good person. So I hope to get forgiveness from him. I also seem to be posting a little more happy jokeful posts lately I hope people don't mind. Being happy alot is really awesome! I mean I havent been this happy in a while! I hope to stay like this. But ya know something? I have been enjoying my porn a lot more lately than normal. Weird. I actually tried cheering up Azu yesterday. I was that happy! Hm happy is good.
Well guys. This is how I have been doing a lot lately. So enjoy porn! Awesome thing ever.
btw. Cute guy in my sig. Just sayin.