I don't know.

[DragonMasterX]

This isn't a rant, but I really am lost here. My first college year hasn't been so good, I haven't fully accustomed myself to studying at this rythm yet, not fully at least, but I did a lot better than my first cuatrimester I suppose. Now I'm having second thoughts.

My career is Accountant, so in my first cuatrimester I had to study Introduction to Economy (I did good in Macroeconomy, so so in Microeconomy), Administration's Principles (My best subject at the time), and Mathematics I.

I failed Maths because I lacked study time, and I blew Economy because I got too nervous in the Final Exams (They were spoken theories).

The second cuatrimester: Contability I, Social and Economic World History, Sociology.

I'm doing good at History, and simply great at Sociology, but Contability is way too hard for me to pick up now. Depression has made me skip many classes and now I can hardly grasp any concept, my motivation for this subject is next to nill and I'm really worried about it. I really want to give up this subject and just take on History and Sociology to secure I pass them.

I really, really want to give up Contability I this year, and re-course it the next year when I'll be sure to pick up from the first class, I know my parents don't need convincing because they support me, but I really can't, I don't know how to convince myself. My first exam for Contability I was pathetic, I didn't even read it and just went home as we switched from theory to practic. I didn't even study for the second chance, I told my mother I would try hard at the second exam which is the 29th of this month, but I don't have motivation, no mood for studying, I don't even want to go to the classes. I know I'll fail, and I don't want to kid myself with an ideal that just isn't true to me.

I love assisting to History and Sociology classes, they are fun, and at least I know what I'm doing when I take notes or underline my books, Contability, well, I don't exactly have trouble in the practic when we're exercising, not even when I don't know the concepts because I'm a fast learner, but really, I don't feel like practising at home, or reading the 200 page book about theory, I'm tired, I know I'm near the end of this college year and after that I'll be done and start my summer job; it's as mom says: "C'mon it's the last sacrifice!" but I really am tired, and just don't want to do this anymore this year. Ugh.

Sounded like a rant at the end, sorry for the emoness. But what should I do? Should I just... I mean, I know I've given up on Contability I already, but should I officially declare it?