10-07-2005, 05:59 AM
This is the ultimate rant. This beats all the other pains/ angers/ hatreds we could have felt.
A few months after my grandfather died, all in my family were depressed to death, so my mother brought him home to keep her company. He was a small thing that fitted in her hand, but soon grew into a fine adult that had a strong personality. We loved him dearly and he loved us back. When I came home late at night, he always waited for me and greeted me wagging his tail. He was the only one that really LOVED me. I had more that loved me, but their love was mixed with anger, interests and domination. He was the only whose love was pure. We took care of him as best as we could. He was not my blood, but for me he was my little brother, and he was like a son to my mother, too. We lived seven happy years together.
Two weeks ago, he started to eat less and less. Sometimes he does that, so we took no bigger care. The vet said he needed some studies,but he felt rather good belatedly, so we didn't really bother. Last Saturday, he stopped eating completely. We offered him all the food he went crazy for, to no success. Rapidly he started losing weight and getting weaker. We asked 2 vets this time, that kept giving him stuff he vomitted. Belatedly, he even vomitted the water. Last night, he starting vomitting lots of blood, so we called to 2 clinics that supposedly were open during 24 hours, unsuccessfully. Early in the morning, we called that asshole vet back when he was already in a shallow coma. He applied some shock treatment to him, but didn't survive it. Soon he gasped desperately and then stopped breathing. His tongue was a light purple as he pined away in my mother's arms.
I know everything in this world has to die, and that I'm not immortal either,but why?!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why did he have to die now, being only 7, that's about the half of the lifespan that dogs usually have?! (my previous dogs lived about 15). We took such a good care of him, and offered him all the commodities we could (which is one reason I have pretty few regrets, cuz I tried making him as happy as I could), so why did he have to die so young?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I've seen dogs that nobody gives a damn about, and also stray dogs, that live for so much than him. I'm devastated, so my mother.
.......I will still love him, and I'll always admire his strength, his beauty, his courage, his strong personality. I'll always be grateful to have shared seven years of my existance with sb so lovable. But I'll also feel very lonely when I'll go home this night and he won't be there to greet me anymore, knowing that I'll never see him again. Never, never, never again........
.......you know, when my grandpa died, I was mad at God not only for taking him away, but also for all that he suffered (he was more than a month in agony). But after all this time, I wanted to be friends with God again, but I doubt he wants to be friend with me....What costed Him to leave my doggy with us a few years longer?!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell costed Him?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not fair!!!!!!!!!! Not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A few months after my grandfather died, all in my family were depressed to death, so my mother brought him home to keep her company. He was a small thing that fitted in her hand, but soon grew into a fine adult that had a strong personality. We loved him dearly and he loved us back. When I came home late at night, he always waited for me and greeted me wagging his tail. He was the only one that really LOVED me. I had more that loved me, but their love was mixed with anger, interests and domination. He was the only whose love was pure. We took care of him as best as we could. He was not my blood, but for me he was my little brother, and he was like a son to my mother, too. We lived seven happy years together.
Two weeks ago, he started to eat less and less. Sometimes he does that, so we took no bigger care. The vet said he needed some studies,but he felt rather good belatedly, so we didn't really bother. Last Saturday, he stopped eating completely. We offered him all the food he went crazy for, to no success. Rapidly he started losing weight and getting weaker. We asked 2 vets this time, that kept giving him stuff he vomitted. Belatedly, he even vomitted the water. Last night, he starting vomitting lots of blood, so we called to 2 clinics that supposedly were open during 24 hours, unsuccessfully. Early in the morning, we called that asshole vet back when he was already in a shallow coma. He applied some shock treatment to him, but didn't survive it. Soon he gasped desperately and then stopped breathing. His tongue was a light purple as he pined away in my mother's arms.
I know everything in this world has to die, and that I'm not immortal either,but why?!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why did he have to die now, being only 7, that's about the half of the lifespan that dogs usually have?! (my previous dogs lived about 15). We took such a good care of him, and offered him all the commodities we could (which is one reason I have pretty few regrets, cuz I tried making him as happy as I could), so why did he have to die so young?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I've seen dogs that nobody gives a damn about, and also stray dogs, that live for so much than him. I'm devastated, so my mother.
.......I will still love him, and I'll always admire his strength, his beauty, his courage, his strong personality. I'll always be grateful to have shared seven years of my existance with sb so lovable. But I'll also feel very lonely when I'll go home this night and he won't be there to greet me anymore, knowing that I'll never see him again. Never, never, never again........
.......you know, when my grandpa died, I was mad at God not only for taking him away, but also for all that he suffered (he was more than a month in agony). But after all this time, I wanted to be friends with God again, but I doubt he wants to be friend with me....What costed Him to leave my doggy with us a few years longer?!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell costed Him?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not fair!!!!!!!!!! Not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!