12-10-2012, 03:11 AM
Things have really slowed down here, for sure. It's kind of disheartening to see the whole Digimon train start to slow down, even with the new seasons. I told myself many times that I would never lose that spark that I have for Digimon, and I haven't. Even though it isn't as strong as it used to be, it's still there. This is a true test for us hardcore fans trying to hold on to the past, it's very difficult to achieve the level of emotion and wonder that we had as kids because things just aren't as new or exciting when you're an adult (at least for me).
I've lurked in this place for years and watched it, along with Digimon itself, decline in popularity. The whole thing has kind of left a gap inside my heart... There was so much passion before, so much of that divine interest. I remember the day I discovered this universe, I was a regular fan for a long time before I found lemons. That changed my whole world in a very intense and profound way. It felt so right to me because it was exactly what I needed in my real life. I needed a partner who would stand by my side and fight for me when things got tough and I needed to feel what love is. I still haven't found those things and that is why I'm feeling this emptiness more and more.
I don't know how good it is for me to try and hold on to what little passion I have left.. Whenever I bring up those memories, it always turns to thoughts of things that I probably won't experience, like having a true best friend or knowing what love is. I think these things because I have always been sensitive and quite frankly, mentally weak. I accept this as a part of me because I've been this way since birth, always the one hiding in my shell.. I know that makes me inferior to basically everyone here and a few of you probably have strong opinions about what I'm writing, but I NEED to vent this out for my own sake.
I apologize, this has become more about my problems and less about Digimon/this place. What I'm trying to say is, I miss the good old days. That is the most basic version of my thoughts.
I've lurked in this place for years and watched it, along with Digimon itself, decline in popularity. The whole thing has kind of left a gap inside my heart... There was so much passion before, so much of that divine interest. I remember the day I discovered this universe, I was a regular fan for a long time before I found lemons. That changed my whole world in a very intense and profound way. It felt so right to me because it was exactly what I needed in my real life. I needed a partner who would stand by my side and fight for me when things got tough and I needed to feel what love is. I still haven't found those things and that is why I'm feeling this emptiness more and more.
I don't know how good it is for me to try and hold on to what little passion I have left.. Whenever I bring up those memories, it always turns to thoughts of things that I probably won't experience, like having a true best friend or knowing what love is. I think these things because I have always been sensitive and quite frankly, mentally weak. I accept this as a part of me because I've been this way since birth, always the one hiding in my shell.. I know that makes me inferior to basically everyone here and a few of you probably have strong opinions about what I'm writing, but I NEED to vent this out for my own sake.
I apologize, this has become more about my problems and less about Digimon/this place. What I'm trying to say is, I miss the good old days. That is the most basic version of my thoughts.