07-21-2006, 03:23 AM
Just me.....(contemplating)
Do you remember so long ago when we first met? It was two years ago and we were both so young.We knew very little about each other and we became inseparable.The memory fills my mind with a sorrow I've known all too well. I remember that it was March and it was cold and you were walking me home. I was nervous and I could tell that you were as well. You held my hand when I said that I would be your girlfriend and I remember feeling like I could fly, like nothing else mattered because I was with you.What happened to us babe? How'd we get this bad? Was it when I moved that things went downhill? You're all I think about when I'm not crying or contemplating suicide. I miss you and I know that we can never be the same again because we're too far gone and sometimes love can't have a second chance.WIth us it can't, and I don't know what to do because you were my world, my stars, my universe and I lost all of that. I wish you could know all of the damage you're doing to me, how I'm not the same and how I ache and bleed and hurt. That memory of when we first became a couple brings me to tears because I miss those times, when there was no trouble on my mind, well, not as much and an ease in my heart. But now, you're with my best friend and it's killing me because it's like you're throwing that fact in my face, especially when you tell me you love her and want to marry her and have kids with her.You used to tell me that all the time and it made me happy, gave me something to look forward to, now what do I do?Where do I go from here?I have nothing and yet, I'm not altogether that sure why I'm still living.We were never meant to be and that fact is killing me.
~Dreamer~
Do you remember so long ago when we first met? It was two years ago and we were both so young.We knew very little about each other and we became inseparable.The memory fills my mind with a sorrow I've known all too well. I remember that it was March and it was cold and you were walking me home. I was nervous and I could tell that you were as well. You held my hand when I said that I would be your girlfriend and I remember feeling like I could fly, like nothing else mattered because I was with you.What happened to us babe? How'd we get this bad? Was it when I moved that things went downhill? You're all I think about when I'm not crying or contemplating suicide. I miss you and I know that we can never be the same again because we're too far gone and sometimes love can't have a second chance.WIth us it can't, and I don't know what to do because you were my world, my stars, my universe and I lost all of that. I wish you could know all of the damage you're doing to me, how I'm not the same and how I ache and bleed and hurt. That memory of when we first became a couple brings me to tears because I miss those times, when there was no trouble on my mind, well, not as much and an ease in my heart. But now, you're with my best friend and it's killing me because it's like you're throwing that fact in my face, especially when you tell me you love her and want to marry her and have kids with her.You used to tell me that all the time and it made me happy, gave me something to look forward to, now what do I do?Where do I go from here?I have nothing and yet, I'm not altogether that sure why I'm still living.
~Dreamer~