Rape me, rape me again

[Wisemon]

I'm getting that bad feeling again, that feeling that it was a denial to think I could actually win. I didn't see her all week. They weren't dates, but I was "stood up" for three times that we'd normally meet. I didn't send an email right away, because that would be too clingy, but I sent one today.

Hey, I didn't see you at lunch this week, or at the after school program. I taught the kids how to play blackjack.
Older girl: Isn't that gambling?
Me: Not if you don't put money on it. Besides, it'll improve your math skills.

I understand if you've been down this week; you said your dog had a calcified spine, and time was running out. I've been pretty depressed myself-about the election. I know it's not quite the same, but it's the same feeling of helplessness. Anyway, can you just send me a reply to let me know you're still alive? I know that sounds odd, but I had an email buddy with an incurable kidney condition, and he just stopped replying one day.

I was listening to a Foo Fighters B-side while I wrote this.

How I Miss You
How i miss you
How i miss you
How i miss you
I should never call
How i hope that you still miss me

Did I lose you?
Did I lose you?
Did I lose you?
Somewhere down the line
Hide & seeks alright if i find

Do you miss me
Like i miss you
If you miss me,
Never go away
Hopefully, you'll come stay someday

If you're leaving,
come back soon
Thats not easy to say

I'll wait here,
dream of you
all alone as i ache

Right now, I'm listening to The Offspring.
[quote]All Along
Deep inside secret