09-24-2004, 04:27 PM
Whoa. #5 was my life only a few weeks ago. I've struggled with depression, and there are times when I've been in so deep that I just couldn't get out on my own, and so here's my best advice: Find someone you can trust, and tell them that you're going through tough times and that you're afraid that you might commit suicide. I'm sure that for all that they blame you for everything, your parents wouldn't just let you kill yourself. And I'm sure that for all the problems you've had with your friends, there are at least one or two of them that you can trust. And you do have some willpower left. The fact that you came here to try and get help means that you don't really want to kill yourself. You can fight depression, but don't try to do it alone.