05-30-2004, 03:09 PM
Ugh... In about 7 days, I graduate from High School. I know it's supposed to be a good thing, but I find myself dreading it.
I feel like I got ripped off. In the past four years, I've had only one girlfriend, and it didn't work out. I don't know whether or not I have any actual friends. People don't seem to want to talk to me.
This is probably because I have a lot of trouble with social situations. I can't speak very well, and I usually end up stuttering unless I know exactly what I'm going to say, or unless someone prompts me. And I'm terrible at dealing with large social events. If there's too much noise, I break down. Over the past two years, I've had at least 5 of these breakdowns. The worst was a few months ago during a theatre rehearsal. I was doing a scene where I had to talk over other people, and I just started hyperventilating. Thankfully someone noticed, but it probably cost me socially.
I don't know how I'm going to get through this next week. I have to attend senior outings all week, which means lots of large social events, and with the exception of the prom, they're all mandatory.
I feel like I got ripped off. In the past four years, I've had only one girlfriend, and it didn't work out. I don't know whether or not I have any actual friends. People don't seem to want to talk to me.
This is probably because I have a lot of trouble with social situations. I can't speak very well, and I usually end up stuttering unless I know exactly what I'm going to say, or unless someone prompts me. And I'm terrible at dealing with large social events. If there's too much noise, I break down. Over the past two years, I've had at least 5 of these breakdowns. The worst was a few months ago during a theatre rehearsal. I was doing a scene where I had to talk over other people, and I just started hyperventilating. Thankfully someone noticed, but it probably cost me socially.
I don't know how I'm going to get through this next week. I have to attend senior outings all week, which means lots of large social events, and with the exception of the prom, they're all mandatory.