Okay, let’s get this stuff over with. I’m Zakuyoe, and I write in the concept of Digimon Fan Fiction. What is written here is not meant to cause misapprehension of the characters in any way, so don’t sue me, freedom of speech and opinion, after all. So now to the warnings: This particular fan fiction series like most others (and by most I mean all but at most six or seven?) contains mature themes, not to mention content that may be disturbing to young readers. But if you like many others got here by the Digiartist’s Domain or wherever I end up posting this (possibly my own web page…), then you should already know what to expect.
I don’t own Digimon; they are a part of Toei, so buzz off the lawsuits.
Here’re the titles of my other series:
For Mature Audiences (R or NC-17), mostly on the Digiartist’s Domain:
A Hint to the Past (Crossover Of All Seasons, My Long-Term Project)
Seasons Crossover (Crossover Of All Seasons, Longest Series Yet)
Deserted Lands (Alternate Two Chapters Of The Pyramids Part Of Season 1)
American Dream (Crossover Of All Seasons, Based On Three Normal Humans)
Way of the Wolf (Based On The Perspective of Koji Minamoto in Season 4)
Light My Frozen Candle (Tommy’s Story On Life With Shinya)
Lemon Requests (Depends On The Request)
Other series (G, PG or PG-13), still under construction:
The Digi High School Life (Life of the 02 Characters After MaloMyotismon’s Defeat)
Chapter 1: In The Thoughts Of Light
It was just like how the old saying went: what goes around comes around. I was just as bored as I had been when I went to the Digital World. Of course, back then I didn’t have anyone else to talk to that wouldn’t be busy. Now I’ve got Zoe, JP, Tommy, Koichi and… Koji. There was something about Koji that I found uncomfortable talking about, and the only person I could spill the beans on was Koichi. Every time I talked to Koichi, he could give me the information I needed about him. Like how Koji’s birthday was tomorrow.
Koichi had given me all the details to that. We couldn’t greet him until the party, so we had to act all day like we had forgotten. Although I felt like that was humanely wrong, I stuck to the plan. Maybe then I could express to Koji that I had odd feelings for him.
My mind was quickly diverted from this as I felt my brother tug my shirtsleeve. Being the older brother, I had to respond to him.
“I’ve got a problem,” he muttered. I looked into his eyes concernedly, “I saw this person one day, and I feel really attracted to him, but I don’t know how to confront him. I also don’t know if he’s gay.”
“So you’re liking this guy, but don’t know how talk to him?”
“It’s not necessarily a guy,” said Shinya.
“Well,” I interjected, “A him is a guy, and only guys are gay. So spill the beans and tell me who it is. I can only help you if I knew the person. Different styles clash with…”
“I got the message. I dunno if you know this person…” As he leaned into my ear and whispered a name, I was pondering on how my parents would’ve thought to have both of their children gay. A familiar name rang into my ear. I couldn’t believe it… him; of all the people in Japan he was someone I knew.
“Tommy? The guy with the large hat?” Shinya nodded. I remembered on that one party that we had hosted once we defeated Lucemon… Tommy had announced to our group that he was gay; he thought it might have something to do with Yutaka’s being stiff and such. Yutaka was his brother, and never hung around with us because he was in college.
What struck me so suddenly yet so much more was what Tommy had also announced to our group. “I have a problem. I like Shinya, Takuya’s brother, but I don’t know what to do…” I regretted leaving him alone for the rest of that evening.
But now? It was like the two were being drawn together, and there was a wall dividing them. They each wanted the other, but were so chicken to ask.
“How about this?” I suggested to my brother, “Why don’t we go buy him a present. I’m going to buy Koji a birthday present while we’re at the mall. You can give it to him at the… you know.” Shinya caught my drift as I dressed myself for the mall.
There was only one word to describe it: empty. Each hall of stores was deserted of people, and it was starting to scare me. I directed my brother to a jewelry store, and he looked at me strangely. “Takuya, why are we here?”
“To buy your crush a present, remember?” I looked through the glass panels of necklaces and chains, noting the good ones. “I’m sure Tommy would like this.” I pointed at a silver neck chain with a light blue crystal at the end. I hoped for it to remind Tommy of Ice, and it was a hint to Tommy that I had helped choose it, because only an ex-Digidestined would know that he was related to the ice element. I handed Shinya the cash; he walked up to the cashier with a straight face. While he conversed with the cashier guy, the door ringer thingy rang. You know, the one that rings when it’s opened. I stood dead as Tommy walked in.
“Hiya, Takuya!” rang his voice, running to me. I greeted the young boy as he turned to Shinya and grew a shade of red. “What’re you buying?”
“Uh, nothing really. Just a present for Koji. You?” His face was just as nervous as mine.
“Well, uh… yeah, I was getting Koji a present, too.” He nervously looked around the room as he gave quick and rapid glances at my brother.
Poor thing, I told myself, there’s gotta be some way to get the two together… Shinya tugged on my sleeve as he whined impatiently.
“Come on, Takuya, let’s go. I don’t want Tommy to see me with this.” I ushered them outside as I glanced at Tommy, who was also eying us.
I awoke the next morning feeling rather depressed. Actually, it was noon, because I had slept in. I knew Shinya hadn’t; remembering his situation, I think he had been thinking of Tommy all morning. I went downstairs to enjoy my breakfast as I found the scent of bacon in my nose. I gobbled it down, and I quickly turned to Shinya across the table. I felt sad for him; despite the fact that he loved bacon, he hadn’t touched it at all. He was really smitten with Tommy, I could tell.
“So, honey, what are you planning to do before you go to Koji’s party?” My mom had met Koji at our party.
“I forgot to buy Koji’s present yesterday. I’ll buy it for him today at the mall.” I packed my stuff and went, taking a piece of bacon from Shinya’s plate while mom looked away.
I had no idea what to get him, as I wandered through the shops. Remembering the blue and yellow outfit he had worn, I ran into a clothing store and got another pair. Then I realized my mistake: I had mixed the colors around. True it; I had gotten him a yellow jacket and a blue shirt. I got a blue shirt a size too small on instinct. Had I wanted to see how slim Koji really was, or had I really forgotten that, like the colors? I wandered through many more stores, and recognized a shorthaired fellow with a green shirt and a red undershirt. It was Koichi, and beside him was Koji.
“KOJI!” I yelled. The two turned around, and to my surprise, Koji hid behind his brother. “Hiya there, Koichi and Koji!” Koji looked nervous as Koichi turned away.
“I’m going to escort mom around the shop.” He walked away as he left a tense Koji with me.
“So buddy, how are you?”
“I’m fine,” he said coldly. I worried about him; he was becoming back to his antisocial self that he had been when we first met in the Digital World. I liked him better as his cheery self.
“Hey buddy, don’t get so cold on me. I was only asking, no?” I was trying to convert Koji. What had he done to make him this cold?
“Come on, Takuya. What’s making me so cold? I’m the same me.” I noticed that he wasn’t looking at me directly. Was he hiding something from me?”
“I don’t know, Koji. Something’s telling me that you’re not the one I’ve always known… kinda like that one in the Digital World when we first met. That time, you were holding something from us. Are you now?”
“I… no, I’m not.” Maybe he was just stressed out? I wrapped my arm around his back for support, but he slapped it off painfully. He turned to look at me for the first time. “I’m not hiding something from all of you. I’m only hiding from you, Takuya.”
I was now confused. “So everyone knows something that I don’t?” He shook his head.
“I mean that there’s something only you should know that I’ve hid from everyone.” Now I was really confused. What could I need to know that it was only to be heard by me?
“Then what is it?” Before he could answer me, Koichi came back, his mom beside him.
“Hello Takuya, Koji,” she muttered, “It’s getting late in the afternoon. Perhaps we could bring you home now?” I turned to my watch… Koji’s party was going to start in ten minutes, and I hadn’t wrapped my present. I could always just settle for the original bag, of course.
“Oh, right.”
“Are you sure you don’t need a ride home, Takuya?” I considered the offer.
“Oh well… I guess I could… Thanks.”
The positioning of the four of us was rather uncomfortable. Mrs. Kimura was driving the car, of course, and Koichi was in the passenger seat… which left Koji and I to the back. I found it rather uncomfortable as I took side glances occasionally. He was looking out the window, and didn’t take a. He was looking out the window, and didn’t take any notice of my being there. Unless he was staring at my reflection through the window… I quickly turned away as we neared his house. “Thanks again!” he yelled as he got off and hurried to his house, the car not making a budge. “Shouldn’t you be leaving?”
I looked at the other two nervously. “Oh,” muttered Koichi, “We want to see if you get into the door. If not, we’ll take you back to our house.” Koji smiled as he ran into his house. We quickly got out of the car and followed. A clangor of cheers greeted him as Koji stood in shock. Everyone of the Ex-Digidestined party was there, as well was Shinya and parents. We all clapped as I went to Shinya.
“You ask Tommy yet?” Shinya shook his head nervously. I needed some help. “Maybe Koji could help me…” I scouted Takuya and pulled him away from the others.
“What’s up?” he asked. Then his face lit up, “Oh, I wanted to say that…”
“Later,” I interrupted, “You can tell me later. I have a problem of my own. My brotherly skills helped me to learn that Shinya likes Tommy. Tommy likes him. The only problem is, we can’t get them together. Are you going to help me?” I beamed as he nodded. I brought him to Shinya.
“See, I bought a gift for Tommy,” explained Shinya as he showed it to Koji. “I’m going to give it to him when I ask him out.” Koji smiled.
“I’m guessing that Takuya helped you?” Koji had took the hint.
“Yeah.”
“I’ll get Tommy here,” I volunteered. I hurried away and found Tommy sitting at one of the couches. “How’re ya doing, buddy?”
“I’m uh…” Tommy faltered as he fingered something in his hand. In his hand was a silver chain similar to the one that Shinya and I had bought for him, only it had a burning emblem on it. “Has Shinya mentioned me at all? I mean, what has he said about me?”
“Well…” How would I bring the news? Would I simply bring the news to him? “I dunno. But to the reason I came here… Koji wanted you.” I brought Tommy to Koji, where I found Shinya shivering with anxiety as Tommy approached him. I felt Tommy become insecure at the same time. We brought the two awfully close together.
“Uh…” began Shinya, “I wanted to ask you a question…”
“Ok…” Tommy and my brother were unusually nervous. They were young, after all.
“I wanted to ask… will you go out with me?”
“Huh?”
“Like, you know… dating?” Tommy’s eyes blew open, losing all nervousness. He ran up to him as he practically choked his new boyfriend. Shinya gave a nervous chuckle as he embraced Tommy.
“I’d love to, Shinya.” I smiled: I had done something good for them today.
After Koji had opened his gifts, his dad had announced a sleepover. We all ran to his room as he got out five sleeping bags. As I prepared to grab one for myself, Koji stopped me. He pointed to the bed. “You’re on the bed.” I questioned this in my mind as I sat on it.
I saw Koji looking through a photo album, so I got up to look at it. It was JP’s gift to him. The picture I saw wasn’t exactly what I had expected. We were at the KaratseNumemon Mountain. We were all asleep, and Koji was snuggled up to me.
“Odd picture, don’t you think?” I watched him blush furiously as he went to bed. I followed suit, but couldn’t fall asleep. I woke Koji up. “You were trying to say…? Come on, buddy, no one’s awake now.” Koji sighed.
“Well, would you be mad at me if I told you that I was in love with you?” I stood in shock. I had been feeling the same for quite some time, and now it was becoming true. My hopes went down fast as Koji took it the wrong way. He smothered his face into his sleeping bag, sobbing hard. I placed my knees on each side of him as I tried to comfort him. I noticed he was trying to fall asleep.
“Koji, come on buddy, wake up!”
“Leave me alone!”
“I was just reacting, Koji. I wanted to say I love you too, but you turned me down…” Suddenly I wanted him badly, how I wanted to lick his muscular build. Without thinking, I stuffed my head under his shirt as his deodorant made its way into my nose. It smelled perfect. I heard Tommy and Shinya laughing.
“Shut up Tommy,” muttered Koji, “You’re a gay couple too.” That shut them up. I removed my head from his shirt as I flipped him over, meeting his eyes with my own. We stared at each other for some time before he laid back, closing my eyes. He wanted me to kiss him. It was also what I wanted, so I closed that desire. We merely brushed lips together, feeling his delicate lips on mine. Suddenly his urges took over. He switched positions as he began to attack my mouth. He sucked on my lip, evidently wanting a taste of my saliva. I felt him strike his tongue into my mouth, licking my mouth walls and its roof. I gave a moan, signaling that I enjoyed it. This moment had come at last… with all the waiting in the Digital World... I was interrupted from my thoughts as I felt his hands in my shirt.
All I could do was give him the control as he brushed my nipples. I let him do all he wanted. It was my body for him to use at will. It was like my second gift to him. He pinched them playfully as I began to thrash around in pleasure. Sure, it wasn’t too much, but with that done to you, you might as well be thrashing too. He pressed his warm body closer to mine as he held me tighter. I was slightly disappointed when he removed his tongue from my mouth, but that excitement quickly came back as he ran his tongue up my chest. I shivered at his touch. He sucked at my neck, and a hickey formed. He removed my shirt as I thought of something. I wanted some fun too. I took this opportunity as he was taking off my shirt. I flipped him around again. Now I was on top.
I wanted to taste more of him, as I explored his tongue. It wasn’t long before he flipped me again. Now I was on my back. I caught a glint in his eye as he looked between my legs. Instantly, he removed my pajamas. Now I was only dressed in my brilliant red boxers. I had gotten them after we defeated Lucemon, and I thought that it would remind me of Agunimon. Koji lowered its waistband as my erection shot straight upward. It was now in his control. He licked upwards on my balls as I groaned. I was almost certain that he had done it before, but I knew that that wasn’t true. He abandoned this as he swirled his tongue around my crown. Now I was thrashing once more. He took each of my hands with his own and pinned them to the ground. I was now squirming as he inched his way to the whole thing. When he reached that point, he sucked on my cock like a straw. Oh, how I so badly want to thrust back, but the risk of hurting him prevented me. However, I did do that when he began to bob his head on it.
“KOJI” I yelled. My orgasm was at hand I continued to thrust into his mouth as I felt a sensation come over me. I shot my seed into him, as it filled his mouth. I was worried now. Did he want me to do that? My question was answered as he swallowed it in two gulps. He was satisfied, and apparently wanted to stop. I wasn’t done; when would I get my turn to taste his cum?
“That’s got to be enough to prove my love for you,” he managed to say between heavy pants of air.
“But we didn’t properly make love to each other!”
“I don’t think I want to try that until a little later. Maybe when we date each other a little longer.” As he laid on the floor, I cooed my new boyfriend’s name.
“Can we sleep together, at least?” He nodded as he pulled off the remaining clothing off him. He snuggled up to the warmth of my chest as I wrapped my arms around his neck, my legs around his waist. I began to fall into my deep slumber as he curled up to me, feeling the warmth of my bare chest. I ran my finger up and down his back before I entered dreamland…
So, how is it? Is it too bad? Well if you hadn’t noticed, this occurs at the same time as Chapter 1 on three other series. On the DaD, this is Part 1A, the 1st chapter in “Way of the Wolf” is Part 1B, and the first chapter in “Light My Frozen Candle” is Part 1C. It’s very confusing; the Part number refers to the day the sex scene occurs. Parts sharing the same number are on the same day. So “Way of the Wolf” + “In The Heart of the Fire” + “Light My Frozen Candle” all share PART 3 (Parts A, B, and C), only that “Light My Frozen Candle” also has Part 2A
-Zakuyoe