Red Digivice Diaries

Entry 1 - Not Normal

By Lord Archive

Digimon belongs to Toei Animation Co., Fox Kids, Saban Entertainment,
Bandai, and so on... and is used without consent. I'm only borrowing
them until they release the next tape.

This is for MATURE audience only. If you can not handle fanfiction
depicting sex between characters DO NOT READ THIS! If you don't
like young teenagers depicted in graphic sex, DO NOT READ THIS!
If you aren't 18 or older and have at least the mental age of 18, DO NOT READ THIS!

If you don't think 12 and 13 year olds don't have sex, hate to break
it to you but Japan has had 1 or 2 girls aged 12 to 14 give live
birth every year. That does not take into account that Japan treats
abortion as a form of birth control meaning there were more girls
that age who got pregnant and had an abortion. The United States
has hundreds of live births to 12 to 14 year old girls annually.

I hold nothing but characterization sacred. As long as I can portray
characters close to what they are in series, I don't care what they
do or what happens to them. I prefer having couples being at least
being sixteen, but with digimon they're very mature for young teens
and more responsible than many 'adults' I know. Hell, they're usually
more responsible than I am. Besides, the legal age of consent in
Japan is thirteen, so the characters involved can, sort of, legally do this.

This is an Alternate Universe fict. While the timeline of this series
follows Adventures series pretty closely, but the event at Mt. Fuji
with Black War Greymon and Oikawa occurred very differently in this
series which caused everything that followed to change as well.
What happened is not important for Red Digivice Diaries, but does
play a factor with its sister series, War Diaries Zero-Three.

Romantic relationships involved: Takari and a little Taira

Strict Japanese name usage: Yagami = Kamiya, Hikari = Kari, Takeru
= T.K., Tailmon = Gatomon, Taichi = Tai, Daisuke = Davis, Miyako
= Yolie, Wizarmon = Wizardmon, Heaven's Knuckle = Hand of Fate, Holy Arrow = Celestial Arrow

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Normal. To be the same as everyone else. It's been a long time since
I've felt like a normal girl. And with the way my life is, I may never feel like that.

I'm Yagami Hikari and I'm twelve-years-old and attend sixth grade
at Odaiba Elementary. That sounds normal, right? However, thanks
to the time I've spent in the Digital World, I'm closer to thirteen
and have had more life experiences than most twenty-year-olds. I've
hated someone enough to want him dead and made sure that he died
horribly. What was worse was that I had to help kill that bastard
twice. And I've had to live with the knowledge of killing him since I was eight.

A normal girl goes to school, participates in clubs, fantasizes
about having boys fall in love with her, and watches her favorite
anime series. Sure, I go to school; however, my club is formed of
a team who can travel across dimensions and has saved the world
on a few occasions, I'm stuck in the middle of a love triangle,
and I can't watch anime anymore since I sympathize too much with it.

A couple of my old friends came across this old Kenshin series.
One of them simply adores how tragic and cool Kenshin is. Yeah,
cool, killing for a cause until you can't kill anymore. I've killed
and will probably have to kill again. Will there be a time where
it becomes too much and I lose sight of what my cause is? That I
might end up killing things to save the world over and over again
until I'm no longer me-- just a protector, a killer, a murderer.
Will I ever snap because I've kill far too many times?

That isn't something that should cross a sixth grader's mind when
she's watching a samurai cartoon. Don't even get me started on Rayearth and Hikaru.

In the anime they make such a big deal out of a kiss. How romanticized
they make it look. How special it was. How that's enough for them.
That is all they ever need to do. They never talk about the thin
line that exists between just kissing and doing more than that. A lot more.

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The wind blew gently over the grass in the meadow and rustled the
leaves on the trees in a nearby forest.

Tailmon and Patamon seemed to be playing some kind of game. It looked
kind of like hunter and prey, with Patamon being the prey.

Hikari brushed a few hairs out of her face. "So, Takeru, what is
it that you wanted to talk to me about?"

Takeru audibly gulped. "Um, well, you see...."

Hikari couldn't help but giggle, but suddenly stopped when she heard something roar.

Takeru backed away from the forest as Kuwagamon, a giant red insect
digimon, burst from the forest canopy. "Damn, he looks hungry."

Kuwagamon flew straight toward the pair and tried to grab Takeru
in its powerful pincers. Takeru hugged the ground for dear life
as the giant insect swooped pass.

"Takeru!" Hikari yelled out and released a sigh of relief as he
looked up toward her. She then froze as Kuwagamon turned toward
her, its maw snapping hungrily.

Takeru ran as if his life depended on it. He tackled Hikari to the
ground just before the monstrous digimon would've struck.

"Heaven's Knuckle!"
"Holy Arrow!"

The two energy blasts struck Kuwagamon, obliterating it.

Hikari and Takeru had been so concerned about not becoming the creature's
lunch, that they had failed to notice their digimon evolve to protect them.

Takeru rolled off of Hikari and waved at the angel digimon. "Thanks, you two."

Angemon nodded. "Anytime."

Angewomon gazed down at the two of them. "Angemon, perhaps we should scout around for trouble."

Angemon looked concerned. "Perhaps you're right...." He flew off,
seemingly wanting to say more but couldn't.

"Ah, Hikari, you okay?" Takeru propped himself, preparing to stand
up. This had the effect of causing him to momentarily hover over Hikari.

"I'm fine." Hikari stared into Takeru's eyes. "Thanks for saving me."

Takeru smiled. "Anytime." He went to stand up, but stopped when
he felt Hikari's hands on his shoulders. He sweated a little, not
sure what to do since she wasn't saying anything. He just looked
into her eyes and found himself leaning towards her.

Hikari saw that his face was slowly lowering. As if some part of
her was impatient, she almost involuntarily lifted her head off the ground.

Their lips connected briefly at first, a little longer the second
time, and the third didn't seem to end. Hikari's arms wrapped around
Takeru, hugging him closely, relishing the feeling of his lips pressed
tightly against hers and his warm body on top of hers. Her lips
parted a little and she licked his lips before he opened his mouth.
Her tongue lashed against his in an erotic wrestling match.

Takeru couldn't believe the kiss or how Hikari's roaming hands goaded
him on. Her hands had slipped under his shirt and were almost massaging
him. His hands were roaming over her body as well. He pushed up
her shirt until her bra was showing. He then slipped a couple fingers
under the imitation silk fabric and caressed one of her hardened nipples.

Hikari moaned. She removed a hand from under Takeru's shirt and
unclasped her bra. She groaned happily as Takeru exposed her breasts
to the air. She reluctantly let him break off their passionate frenching
as he made a trail of butterfly kisses from her lips to her breasts.

Takeru began to suckle on Hikari's teats. He was beyond happy that
Hikari was letting him do this. He didn't care how much this would
upset Daisuke, and didn't even give a thought to what Taichi would
do if he found out. All that mattered at the moment to Takeru was
Hikari and how they could share pleasure with each other.

Hikari knew why Takeru had wanted to talk to her, to finally tell
her his feelings, but his actions were proving that far better than
his words could have. She gave no thought to Daisuke or to her family.
This wasn't about anyone else, just Takeru and her.

Takeru looked into Hikari's eyes as he unbuttoned her pants. Seeing
nothing but longing, he pulled her pants and panties off. He marveled
at the sight before him. A fine brown delta of hair pointed enticingly to her treasured hole.

Hikari gazed up while he removed his pants and boxers. She was impressed
with his size as it was bigger than her older brother's. His pubic
hair had grown to form a bush larger than her own.

Takeru laid on top of her and began to kiss her in earnest. His
cock rubbed against her opening but wouldn't go in. He grabbed hold
of his dick a guided it into her. He felt something block his progress and held on to her tightly.

Hikari braced herself as she felt Takeru lifting off her slightly,
her head nestled against his shoulder. He then thrust into her sharply
and her nails scratched his back and she bit down.

"H-Hikari? You okay?" Takeru propped himself up, a hand involuntarily
going to where she had bit him. His manhood was still inside her.

Hikari shivered under him. Pain and pleasure crashed through her
being in ways she couldn't comprehend. Her eyes were momentarily
unfocused, but soon she was able to see Takeru looking at her with
concern. She smiled at him. "I'm fine now. Please continue... slowly."

Takeru didn't know what else to do. He hadn't planned on doing this.
All he wanted to do was talk, maybe kiss her, but this was so much
more. While he knew that she liked him, he was afraid she didn't
love him or that she liked Daisuke more. There was no way he could
think that now. Not after she just took his virginity and that he took hers.

"Takeru please...." Hikari whimpered.

"S-sorry." Takeru pulled out a little and pushed back in. The pleasure
slammed into his head, idling his thoughts again. There was no use
in thinking about this, but just to do it.

Hikari moaned appreciatively as she felt Takeru thrust into her
again and again. Her hands were on his ass kneading them, and helping to guide Takeru into a rhythm.

Takeru's body pounded against Hikari's, his arms straining to support
his weight and the actions of his hips.

Hikari's whole body was pushed and pulled across the ground. Her
small, tender breasts vibrated as their bodies crashed against each
other. Her mind was soaring with ecstasy. Her body was a blaze with
a fire no amount of water could douse. Her needs, her yearnings
were for the approaching moment, the time that she would truly know what pleasure was.

Takeru's world was one tight but slick cunt and his rod. It slid
in and out of her over and over again. The tension was unbelievable.
He grimaced trying to rein in the oncoming flood. He groaned loudly
as he failed to hold on. He fired shot after shot of hot cum into
her and his thrusting became erratic.

Hikari felt his dick twitching and filling her. She was so close.
A little more and she would be orgasming too. Her hand reached down
and encircled his member at the base, coaxing a few more thrusts
and brushing her own clit in the process. Her body arched as the
tension in her body became unbearable. With a cry she finally came,
her vagina trying to milk Takeru's shrinking penis for the last of its seed.

Takeru collapsed heavily on top of Hikari, unable to support himself
anymore. He tried to catch his breath, but he felt like he had just
finished a long desperate battle and won.

Hikari pushed Takeru over a little so she could breath more easily.
Then she just laid there soaking up the experience of what just happened.

Takeru was the first to speak, "Hikari?"

"Hmmm?"

"Um, I, ah just want to, um, say...."

Hikari looked at him, shaking her head slightly and smiling. Even
after that he was having trouble saying it.

Takeru swallowed hard. He knew what he had to say. "I love you."

"After what we just did, I hope so."

Takeru pouted slightly and bowed his head.

Hikari made Takeru look her in the eyes. "I love you, too." She kissed him again.

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"Hikari, I know what you did," Tailmon said simply.

Hikari blushed. "Did what?"

"Mate with Takeru," Tailmon replied.

Hikari fidgeted nervously. "You were spying on us?"

Tailmon laughed. "Hardly. I felt what you were doing over our bond."

Hikari frowned. "So, Patamon knows as well?"

Tailmon nodded. "I don't think he's happy about it."

"Why not?" Hikari asked.

"Because he thinks it's too soon," Tailmon answered.

"What do you think?" Hikari questioned.

Tailmon smirked. "That Angemon should've gotten the same idea Takeru
and you had." She then laughed. "Seriously, I'm happy for you. Waiting
takes away time you could share with him."

Hikari frowned. "I think Takeru and I should wait before making
love again. We're both very young. I'm technically not even legally
able to consent to sex. If I get pregnant or something, how can we deal with it?"

"If something happens, I'm sure you'll be able to handle it," Tailmon encouraged.

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Hikari approached Takeru and Daisuke at school, but as she got near
them, Takaishi turned away from her and began to fidget while Patamon
stared at her. Memories of what happened the day before with Takeru
came unbidden to her mind combined with Patamon's accusing glare
caused Yagami to shift nervously and ignore Takeru's presence. "Hi, Daisuke. How are you?"

Daisuke blinked. "Hi. I'm fine," he replied reflexively. He looked
between Hikari and Takeru. It was very unlike them to ignore each
other. The only reason he could think of was they had a fight. Now
may be his chance. "Are you doing anything tonight?"

"I don't think so. Why?" Hikari replied.

"Want to catch a movie, or something?" Daisuke questioned taking a step closer to her.

Hikari stepped back, and was unsure of how to reply. She didn't
want to be rude and just say no, but right now she was uncertain
if she wanted to invite Takeru as well in fear of what she might
do with him. "Can I get back to you on that? It is a school night."

"Sure," Daisuke replied a little disappointed. "We can always do something this weekend."

The school bell rung and Takeru immediately sprinted off for class, followed by Daisuke.

Hikari tried to catch a breath as she remained behind. All sorts
of thoughts had gone through her head. Just being near Takeru had
made her horny, and Daisuke trying to ask her out hadn't helped.
She was afraid 'do something this weekend' would be 'doing someone,'
and not necessarily Takeru. She shook her head to clear her thoughts before running off to class.

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Hikari frowned as the minutes ticked away for the last class of
the week. It had been almost a week since she had sex with Takeru.
They had yet to talk with each other about anything, let alone about
what they had shared. She was beginning to doubt that Takeru really
loved her. Sure, she hadn't gone to talk to him either, but he did
nothing as Daisuke's flirtation grew even bolder. At least she could
tell that Takeru also couldn't help but think of their time together
since his pants were usually tented whenever she saw him. Unfortunately,
lusting for someone and loving them were two different things.

Daisuke wasn't the only one to believe that Takeru and Hikari had
broken up as a couple. Actually, Daisuke wasn't sure they ever really
were a couple. Those two had always been close friends, and he had
suspected that their relationship was more of a sibling one than
romance. Which ever was the case didn't really matter. Hikari's
relationship with Takeru had apparently soured, and she needed some
loving support and Motomiya certainly wanted to provide it.

The bell rang ending the school day, and Hikari let out a long sigh
as Daisuke immediately went over to her.

"Hikari, want to go on a date?" Daisuke questioned.

Hikari tried not to frown so as not to be rude. She glanced at Takeru
who was pointedly looking away from them. Yet another image of Takaishi
standing above her naked flashed through her mind. She then looked
at Daisuke and briefly wondered what he looked like naked, and then
used a mental sledge hammer to beat that thought down. She knew
she had to do something about this.

"Well?" Daisuke pressed, leaning forward.

Hikari stood up. "Sorry, but I'm going over to Takeru's to study.
Isn't that right?" She turned toward Takaishi.

"Huh? Oh, right. Yeah," Takeru stammered.

Hikari noted Takeru's tented pants. She was once again thankful
for the rather clear sign that Takeru also couldn't stop thinking
last weekend in her presence. Though she doubted he felt the same,
especially when the teacher had him write on the chalk board while obviously hard.

Daisuke pouted at the missed opportunity. However, he wasn't really
upset. Whatever problem Hikari and Takeru had, they needed to work
it out. "That's okay. I'll see you guys around later."

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"Takeru, we need to talk," Hikari said simply as she sat on his
bed. She wasn't sure she liked being entirely alone with him. Tailmon
had dragged Patamon off somewhere after school and Ms. Takaishi
was out grocery shopping, leaving no chance of someone eavesdropping,
but no one to stop them from doing anything either.

Takeru shifted uncomfortably. "Ah, sure."

"We can't keep going on like this," Hikari stated flatly.

Takeru's eyes widened. "What do you mean?"

"Every time I'm near you my mind takes a trip through the gutter," Hikari replied.

"You've been having those thoughts too?" Takeru questioned in surprise.

Hikari nodded. "I haven't been able to keep my head straight all
week. I'm sure I failed that math test this week. While I've heard
of sixty-nine and sixty-seven, I didn't understand what those positions were until that test."

"What's sixty-seven?" Takeru asked.

Hikari briefly debated showing him. "It's a blow job."

"Oh." Takeru scratched his head. "Where do you hear about that stuff?"

"Sora mostly," Hikari replied with a frown.

Silence passed between them for a moment, before Takeru told her, "You know that I love you."

Hikari nodded. "And I love you."

"What about Daisuke?" Takeru asked.

"He's a friend. I wish he'd realize I'm not really interested in him," Hikari answered.

Takeru sighed. "What are we going to do?"

"I don't know," Hikari replied.

Takeru looked at his vulnerable looking lover. Many thoughts went
through his mind on how to help her. He decided to walk up to her and kiss her.

Hikari wasn't surprised as he lifted her chin and pressed his lips
enticingly to hers. Pent up feelings for the past week exploded
as she grabbed him in a desperate hug and hungrily deepened the kiss.

Takeru wasn't sure if he was lowering Hikari to the bed or if she
was pulling him down on top of herself. Either way, it didn't matter.
His hands snaked their way between their bodies as he began to undo
her pants. He broke off their kiss as he roughly yanked her pants
and panties off her, but her clothes became tangled at her feet.

"I'll take care of it," Hikari told him as she moved to free her legs.

Takeru took advantage of it by yanking down his own pants and undergarments.
Seeing Hikari legs spread and looking at him invitingly, he wasted
no time as he pounced on her. Once again he covered her mouth with
his own while his right hand found it's way to her sex. His fingers
poked and probed her, furthering her pleasure despite his inexperience.

Hikari felt his fingers spread her open and the head of his manhood
pressed at her entrance. He then shoved himself all the way into
her. She didn't feel any pain this time, but there wasn't much pleasure
either. That changed as he began to pump his cock in and out of
her body. Each thrust fanned her flames of passion into an increasing inferno.

Takeru's hips slapped against hers. His hands blindly groping her
body, as hers did the same to him. Their tango of ecstasy was maddening
in its intensity. He came into her without warning, his seed filling her.

Hikari let out a desperate cry of longing as Takeru's limp member
left her body since she had failed to orgasm. Her lover wasn't about
to leave her unsatisfied. He moved down her body and placed his
head between her legs. The first tentative lick across her opening
sent a wildfire of sensation throughout her body. It only increased
as he grew bolder and his tongue lavished her sex with attention.

Takeru gauged how well he was doing by the noises his lover was
making. He didn't know what the hard nub of flesh next to her vagina
was, but when he licked it she let out a loud moan of approval.
So, he focused on licking and sucking on that. After mere seconds,
Hikari orgasmed so strongly her cum sprayed onto Takeru. He didn't
stop working her clit until her orgasm subsided.

Takeru looked up at his lover. Her breath was labored and her eyes were closed. "Hikari?"

Yagami tiredly looked at him. "Next time do that before making love to me."

Takeru smiled. "Sure." He then looked down at her slit, which was
leaking cum. He was both aroused and worried at the sight. "We should
also get protection. I don't think we're ready to be parents."

Hikari frowned and nodded.

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Daisuke wasn't sure if he should be upset or happy when he saw Takeru
and Hikari talking to each other before school started on Monday.
Whatever issue they had, the pair had obviously worked out. When
lunch started he had hoped to talk to Hikari, but a bunch of her
old girlfriends had abducted her. He shrugged and decided to eat
lunch with Takeru, who was his usual reluctant self since Takaishi
wouldn't say what the problem had been.

Hikari had been dragged outside. While she was not the best of friends
with any of them now, she used to have a close friendship with all
of them before she started fifth grade and her second adventure in the Digital World began.

"Hikari, you've got to tell us what's going on between Takeru and
you," insisted Dachi, a pimply faced girl with short dirty blond hair.

Hikari squirmed and blushed. "What do you mean?"

"How come you didn't talk to each other at all last week?" questioned
Yukimi, a fairly attractive girl with long brownish hair.

"Well... we had a problem, but we worked it out," Hikari replied hesitantly.

Musume, a demure looking girl with brown hair, shyly asked, "Did you kiss and make up?"

Hikari's face turned deep red. "I, ah, well..." she stammered, uncertain how to answer.

"You did?!" the girls chorused.

"Tell us what it's like to get kissed!" Dachi demanded.

Hikari sweat-dropped while her blush faded slightly. "Ah, it was
nice. Very passionate, really." If they got that excited over a
kiss, there was no way in hell she'd tell them that she wasn't a
virgin. They weren't ready to understand that anymore than that
she was a Chosen who had killed numerous digimon.

"Wow. I wonder what my first kiss will be like?" Yukimi said dreamily.

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"Hello," Hikari greeted a little nervously as she entered the Inoue's store.

"Hey, Hikari, long time, no see," Miyako returned. She then turned
toward her mother. "Can I take a break for a little bit?"

"Sure thing, dear," Mrs. Inoue replied.

Miyako literally hopped over to her friend. "What's up?"

"Can we talk in private?" Hikari whispered.

Miyako shrugged and led Yagami outside. She turned and saw her friend
fidget nervously and kept staring at her feet. "Is something wrong?"

Hikari shook her head. "Not at all... it's just that... I, um... need... protection."

"Protection? Has Daisuke gotten hard to handle?" Miyako questioned.

"Not Daisuke. Takeru... and not in the way you mean," Hikari replied.

Miyako blinked. "Why would Takeru cause you problems?"

Hikari's blush hardened. "It's 'problems' Takeru and I need _protection_ from."

Miyako stared closely and then realization dawned on her. "PHWEEEEE?!
You don't mean condoms, do you?!"

Hikari nodded.

"You're going to sleep with him?" Miyako questioned, still in shock.

"Already have... twice," Hikari admitted.

"Damn! I thought you'd be a virgin bride," Miyako commented.

Hikari shrugged. "Can you help me get protection?"

"Sure, but on one condition. I want details about everything," Miyako demanded.

Hikari swallowed, but nodded. "Can I tell you another time? I'm
on my way to Takeru's place, and well...."

Miyako held up her hand. "Say no more. Stand outside the back window
and I'll toss a package out the window."

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"Hello, Ms. Takaishi," Hikari greeted politely, but with the hint of disappointment as well.

"Hello," Ms. Takaishi returned neutrally. She seemed to look at
Hikari more closely than she had in the past.

Hikari fidgeted under the gaze. "Is something wrong?"

Ms. Takaishi shook her head. "Everything is fine. Takeru is in his room."

Hikari wondered if something was up as she went to her lover's room.
She was puzzled as Takeru sheepishly looked at her. "Is something going on?"

Takeru gave her a sad smirk. "Yeah. Cum stains in the middle of
the bed, but no rubbers in the trash can."

"Huh?" Hikari blinked.

"Mom knows about us," Takeru told her.

"But she didn't say anything to me," Hikari mentioned.

"Well, she hasn't really said anything to me either, but she has
dropped hints. The most blatant being a comment about leaving stains on my bed," Takeru explained.

"It could be a coincidence," Hikari replied.

"She's also started a major article on 'Teenage Sex' and is planning
to do a lot of research on it," Takeru added.

"Guess she does know." Hikari fidgeted. She knew Takeru's mother
well enough to know that Ms. Takaishi tended to write about things
going on in her life, particularly her major articles.

Takeru nodded. "Let's just study for today."

"Yeah," Hikari agreed. "It doesn't feel right to do anything more than that."

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It wasn't until two weeks later that Takeru and I confirmed that
his mother did know, when she came home while we were making love
and acted as if nothing was wrong when she handed me my panties
which I had left in the living room. After that, if Takeru and I
were in the mood, we would make love even if his mother was home.

Takeru and I weren't exactly imaginative lovers. For the first dozen
times we made love, it was the basic missionary position of him
on top. In the two months since we became lovers, our most daring
position was with me on top. However, Takeru and I did have a tendency
to make love in some of the stranger places of the Digital World,
not to mention sneaking off to have sex when there was a good chance of someone finding us.

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The math book Takeru and Hikari were studying fell to the floor
as their lesson turned to anatomy, much as it had many times since
they had become lovers months ago.

First was dentistry, and Hikari noted with her tongue that one of
Takeru's teeth seemed a little loose. Takeru regretfully found out
Hikari had recently eaten some of her mother's health food.

It wasn't long before Hikari was having her breasts thoroughly examined.
If there were any cancerous lumps there, Takeru would've found it
as he felt every millimeter of them with hands, lips and tongue.

Then Takeru took off Hikari's pants and panties and began to exam
her budding womanhood carefully. His fingers exploring her and pulling
apart her lower lips to see what few boys his age ever saw in person.
His thumb rubbed across her clitoris making her more than ready for his special probe.

Hikari reached for the box of condoms hidden under her lover's bed.
She shook it in dismay, noting that it was empty.

Takeru pleadingly looked at her. Hikari replied by grabbing his
arm and drawing him down on top of her.

They kissed each other as their hands sought out their lover's secret
places of pleasure. Hikari moaned as Takeru's fingers penetrated
her once again, while he groaned when she stroked his engorged length.

Their bodies and minds were inflamed with passion. He spread her
pussy wide as she pulled his dick into her own unprotected opening.
Joined in intimacy, he began to pump into her body repeatedly.

She desperately cried out for relief. The sensations of Takeru's
hot meat inside her were unbelievable despite the dozens of times
she had made love. This felt so much better without a condom. His
harden flesh rubbing her wet hole enticingly. With the foreplay
Takeru had given her, she didn't know how much more she could take
as he continued to hammer pleasure deep into her being. Her sweet
agony finally ended and she orgasmed. Her hands held Takeru's hips tightly against her own.

Takeru lost it as Hikari's velvet vice became that of silken iron,
squeezing and pulling in ways words could not describe.

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For months, only Ms. Takaishi and Miyako knew about Takeru and I
being lovers. We didn't tell anyone else about our relationship,
even our families. Partly because we didn't know how Taichi and
my parents would react, and partly because of Daisuke. He may be
obsessive at times, but he's still our friend and we don't want
to hurt him. Unfortunately, secrets have a tendency to come out in the worst possible ways.

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Hikari sat on the toilet, reading the instructions on the back of
the box again and making sure she did the test right. It had been
seven weeks since her last period and was afraid this morning's
nausea wasn't because of her mother's heath food breakfast.

Her watch chimed and her hand shook as she reached for the tester.
If it was blue, her life was screwed over in ways she couldn't imagine.

Tears rolled out of her eyes and her hand involuntarily covered
her mouth. She gathered up the entire pregnancy test kit shoved
it to the bottom of the garbage. She then rushed out of the bathroom,
ran past Taichi and went into her room.

She couldn't understand why she felt so upset. That was the result
she had wanted. It was white meaning she wasn't going to be a mother
soon. She was only in grade school and had no means to take care of a child.

"It was negative, wasn't it?" Tailmon asked.

Hikari blinked away her tears. "How did you know?"

"If it was positive, you would've called him."

Hikari sighed. "I guess so. But this is what I wanted. Why am I so upset?"

"Maternal instinct. You've been with your mate and at some level
you want to have his children. Setbacks are naturally troubling."

"How would you know about that?"

Tailmon ran a claw against the window, light enough that it didn't
make a sound. "I had a mate once. I almost had his child, but that wasn't meant to be."

"Wizarmon, right?" Hikari guessed.

Tailmon nodded sadly.

Hikari looked down. "I'm sorry."

Tailmon hopped down from the window. "Don't be. That's all in the
past and buried. I've moved on with my life."

Hikari gave her digimon a small smile. "So, is there anything you know that'll h-"

The bedroom door was slammed open. "Hikari! What is this?" Taichi
held the pregnancy test box towards her.

Hikari paled. "Um, ah...."

"Who? Why? HOW?!" Taichi demanded.

"T-T-Tai..." Hikari couldn't think of what to say. She was paralyzed from her brother's angry gaze.

"You were forced, right?" Taichi snarled.

Hikari continued to stare at him.

Taichi crushed the box in his hand and ran out of the apartment.

Tailmon poked Hikari. "We better stop him. He's likely to hurt someone like this."

Hikari looked down with a glazed expression. "Um, right."

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Taichi couldn't believe it. Hikari was his little sister, and that
little freak had taken advantage of her. He was supposed to be her
friend, and then he does that to her.

Taichi clenched his fist and grinned viciously. His target was where
he had suspected, loitering at Odaiba Elementary.

"You fucking jerk!" Taichi yelled.

Daisuke was floored, literally, as Taichi ran up and punched him
to the ground. Yagami then kicked him, before grabbing and tossing
him against a wall. He blearily looked at his attacker having no
clue why Taichi was doing this.

"How could you do that? I trusted you. I thought you were her friend.
And I found out you did that?!" Taichi slammed Daisuke against the wall with each statement.

"What are you talking about?" Daisuke asked weakly.

"Don't give me that bullshit!" Taichi kneed him in the stomach.
"You forced Hikari, and I'm going to make you pay!"

"Taichi, stop!" someone called out.

Taichi looked over and snarled, "Stay out of this, Takeru."

Takeru gulped. "I won't, because you've got the wrong guy."

"What?" Taichi glared.

Takeru took a step forward, but his knees were shaking. "I take
it you found out Hikari's not a virgin."

"What?!" Daisuke shouted. "Of course she is! I've never touched her!"

Taichi's hands let go of Daisuke's collar. "What are you saying?"

"I'm the one she's been having sex with." Takeru clenched his eyes shut.

"You... you... you fucking jerk!"

Takeru wasn't really surprised that Daisuke had screamed that and punched him in the face.

"You forced her, didn't you? You're making her do that perverted
stuff with you!" Daisuke couldn't stop the tears rolled out of his
eyes. He kicked Takeru in the stomach. "You raped her!"

Takeru closed his eyes in a vain attempt to brace himself as Daisuke
was about to stomp on his head. He heard someone yell, but waited for the blow to come.

Daisuke stopped as Hikari once again yelled, "Stop it!" She slammed
her shoulder into him to get him away from Takeru.

Daisuke landed on his ass and stared disbelievingly at Hikari.

"Stop it, all of you," Hikari demanded.

Tailmon stood between Taichi and Takeru just in case Hikari's brother tried anything.

Taichi had been staring in shock since Takeru's confession. "Hikari, tell me what's going on?"

Hikari kneeled down next to Takeru, looking him over to see if he
was okay. She sighed. "Takeru and I are lovers. We've been having sex for the past few months."

"But... but I thought...." Taichi shook his head realizing she hadn't
tried to say Daisuke when he had confronted her, but was trying
to say Taichi. He had attacked the wrong guy. But there was something
more pressing. "How did that happen?"

"We've been close ever since we first went to the Digital World.
He's been my protector, my other guardian angel. He's the one I love," Hikari explained.

Taichi scowled. "That doesn't matter. You're too young to have sex."

Hikari glared. "That coming from Mr. I-lost-my-virginity-in-the-fifth-grade?"

Taichi opened and closed his mouth several times. "How did you know?"

"You weren't very discreet about it," Hikari replied.

Tailmon crossed her arms. "Yes. Thanks to you and Sora, I had to
explain to an eight-year-old about the birds, bees and digimon."

Taichi scratched the back of his head while blushing fiercely. "You should've been more careful."

"We try to be," Hikari said.

"What are you going to tell our parents?" Taichi asked.

"When are you going to tell them about Sora?" Tailmon questioned.

Taichi flinched as if someone punched him.

Hikari shrugged. "I won't be telling them anything for now. The
test was negative. But from now on, Takeru, we have to stop when
we don't have protection, understand?"

Takeru nodded nervously. "Right."

Taichi sagged and looked over at Daisuke. The poor kid was a mess
and probably didn't feel anything at the moment but sheer numbness.
Taichi offered him a hand up. "Sorry. I thought... I was... I'm really sorry."

Daisuke nodded mechanically, not paying any attention. He could
only see Hikari and Takeru. He wrenched his eyes shut and ran away from the couple.

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Daisuke may have been annoying when he fawned over me, but he never
deserved that. In a way, I miss the old Daisuke. Full of energy
and embodied the worst traits of my brother. Which was one of the
main reasons I didn't fall for him. Being with him would've been like being with Taichi.

Oddly, though, being like my brother was also the best chance he
had to winning as well. I love Taichi and can deal with his annoying
quirks. I could've fallen for Daisuke if Takeru hadn't entered the
picture, if I had met Daisuke differently, if... well, there are
always a messy load of 'ifs' when something doesn't end perfectly.
While I'm sure Daisuke doesn't feel like I ever gave him much of
a chance, I did. I really did. But it wasn't meant to be. I've always
been happier with Takeru and I belong with him.

The new Daisuke is broken. The digimentals of courage and friendship
don't shine any more. He pushes through the day mopping about what
could've been. It'll be some time before he'll be able to heal and
move on. I hope someone can come along to help him.

And that is yet another thing to set me apart. Girls joke about
breaking a guy's heart. I've unfortunately had to do that. I wish
there was a way I could remove the pain he's feeling. It hurts to
see the look on Daisuke's face when I'm near Takeru.

Why can't I be a normal girl with normal girl troubles? Why do I
have to be the one with blood on her hands? Why do I have to be
the one to break a boy's heart? Why do I have to be more mature
than my years? Why do I have the special powers that I do?

I don't know the answer, and I probably never will. But if anyone
ever offered to make me normal, to remove my gifts and my memories
of things I shouldn't know, I wouldn't take it. The powers are my
responsibility. I wouldn't want to pass them off to someone else
and have them go through what I have. I especially don't want to
lose what I have with Takeru. I don't need to be normal with him. I just need to be me.

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Author's notes:

This is the winning fanfict for Digiartist Domain's September 2002 lemon contest.

The one thing I can't stand as an intellectual pervert are lemons
with no plot. Surprisingly Digimon has a large percentage of hentai
fanficts with actual plot. But then, a fair portion are also yaoi,
yuri, incest, and/or bestiality. Not that I have a problem with
any of those, particularly since I've done a tentacle sex fict with
another anime series. While there are a few ficts with good characterization,
a lot of the Digimon lemons are either low on characterization and/or
the sex wasn't entirely consensual.

The purpose of this series is basically this: characterization fict
using sex as the main point of issue. Despite being young, these
kids have been in positions where complex sexual situations may
result, and that is what I want to explore with this.

How was Tailmon able to evolve to Angewomon? She has her tail-ring
back which gives her the needed energy to momentarily be Angewomon.

BTW: I don't hate Daisuke, I really don't, but part of his character
is being rather unlucky. I can sympathize with it. Part of this
series will include Daisuke recovering from 'losing' Hikari. Unrequited love REALLY SUCKS!

Most of my lemons can be found at http://www.mich.com/~archive/anime
The majority of my Ranma ficts as well as a few ficts from other
series like The Slayers can be found at http://www.geocities.com/Lord_Archive/anime.html