Ok disclaimer time: I own no one... not tai, not Sora, not the blond demon... err... sorry matt fans..

Sex is something I don't find as wrong or sinful or shameful.. I only object to sex between two people who are not deeply in love... my stance on sex is that it intensifies relationships... so basically if you have a good relationship it makes it that much better... you have a bad relationship it makes it worse and more complicated... in this story tai and Sora fall in love, and they end up having sex.. I separated the fic by a divider so you will not have to read the lemon if you just want a little taiora fic. But honestly I recommend you do.. It deals with the plot more, and it lets me know if I am a good enough author to write a tasteful lemon....

Mail me at logan91235@aol.com

Fading Scars

by Logan

What is the measure of friendship? Or love for that matter? Can you love something enough to loose it forever? That is what Taichi Kamiya had learned... that you can love someone enough to loose them to another... for he loved her... he loved her with all his heart and all his soul. He had watched her from his obscure hiding place in the depths of his dark world. To live in the shadow is a hard life. It hurts to exist within the land of things that are not seen but do exist. His love was hidden from all, yet it still swelled within his chest. Yet as his heart continued to beat within the gallows of obscurity he continued to love her from afar.... it is all he could do.

Days passed as years for Taichi Kamiya, he had watched from his hiding place over onto her life. He was a friend, but his eyes were the eyes of love. He could see her... and each beautiful visage of her face broke his heart as he watched her look longingly to another. How many nights had he collapsed onto the soft padded fabric of his bed with tears upon his cheeks? Had his pillow possessed the capacity to speak, it would tell of sobbing fits and sleepless nights where the young Taichi had mearly cradled it within his arms... his surrogate Sora. It was a pathetic thing to see, a boy who by all outward appearances look happy and normal. Yet as night took its position over the earth he would break down to the pathetic mound of sobbing flesh. The eyes which once had looked on with such bravado and courage now wept as though his very world had came to a crashing end upon the jagged rocky spires of life.

This false life had became a hated thing to him. He looked upon his image in the glassy still mirrors with disgust. It wasn't him. Maybe it once had been him, but now it was a lie, a mask of happiness that he wore across his sorrowful eyes in times when he was forced to be happy, he was never truly happy now, he looked at the world through his false eyes with disgust. It was a place that was not for him. Here in this world there was true happiness, and here there was love. It was a world of pictures, none with more substance then the frozen images found within the hollowed walls of a museum. This life was not his... he existed in it as no more then a observer, a creature damned to the deepest tortures of hell... to see a life he was not welcomed to join.

He loved her in a way that was only true in stories... his heart was more at home upon the face of the ivory page then it was within the glittering sun. in stories there was happiness... in the fiction section he belonged, just another lovesick Romeo who was mearly chapters away from meeting his love where he would sweep her into his arms and passionately make love to her. Fiction. Such a floral word for a lie... yet it was a word he was now akin to, for he was now a lie. Yet from his fictitious eyes he could see the girl from a neutral stance. She was perfect.

Sora... the name itself means heaven, and the name was lacking in some way, for heaven was nothing to Sora. She would love without end. Her heart was so vast that it could embrace a world in pure tenderness and still not reach its, limit. Her hair was of silken auburn. It glowed within the sunshine as angelic fire. It smelled softly of freshly cut strawberries. As he closed his eyes he could breath her in. The scent was sweet, and it enveloped her whole body as a light misting of sliced strawberry. His lips quivered at the mear thought of her scent. And the image of tasting her lips was all it would take to condemn him to a life of worship to her. He would love every inch of her... he would bath within the shimmering waters of sunset that dwelled within her tender kind eyes. He wished he had been born as a tear, for as one he would be born within those eyes, then slowly move down her soft curving cheek until his life ended upon those lips... he could wish no sweeter death then to die upon those lips... to die with a kiss from the one girl he loved...

He hated those around her... she had never truly belonged. To any of them... this was not by her own fault though... they didn't know how perfect she was... it amused tai that he must be the smartest person on earth, for it would seem only he could see just what she was.

Sora has started on the girl's soccer team. To them she was mearly a means to victory. She was one of the best, and for that reason they wanted her there. Yet Sora was denied the only thing she had ever longed for from them... friendship. They didn't care... it was shown clearly to her as she had been absent from a game do to injury.... they didn't care... they mearly walked past her as though she was a ghost...

She moved to the boy's team only to find one among them to give her what she needed... Taichi, he had seen her for her greatness.... and he had been her friend. Yet one face in a team is a small portion. She was hated for her skill. She was better then most of them, but she had one fatal flaw. She was a girl. It was for this reason that she was chased from their team despite the heroic efforts of her one friend.

She moved on to tennis... there she found indifference. She wasn't a friend to them, she came from a poor family. She was worse then hated by them... she simply didn't matter anymore.

They were the rich, a class above all others. Sora's family had no stables, or a lavish country home where they could retreat to as an escape from the monotonous life of a millionaire.. To them Sora was no more then a charity case, perhaps a form of amusement. Their own quaint little way of slumming it by hanging out with a genuine poor person.

Tai wanted her though... he wanted her more then life, he wanted to share her joys and pains.. Yet it was for the same reason that he had been close to her that he was denied her. They were friends. And for that reason the days grew darker. And now as tai suffered all the more he wanted to scream in agony. He had watched her from afar. And now he had watched her fall in love.

Matt was a good friend, but he was who she fell in love with. Tai wanted to hate matt now... he saw Sora as she gazed longingly to him from the crowd. Those eyes of love glowed to him, and not to the one who truly loved her. Tai had never known love to be this horrific... his heart began to wrench in agony as it split... pain was something he now knew.... he suffered as no human had ever suffered before. The body bleeds... and it hurts... but that pain was a shadow of agony to the pain of the soul. Tai knew that pain. The pain swallowed him within itself. And each look she cast he saw... He saw her as she looked to him with the same eyes tai looked to her with.

Matt was clueless to her heart... he was unaware as it longed for him... he was unaware of it as it suffered silently. Matt was popular..... he was surrounded by girls who had steadily fallen in love with him. And he had fallen in love with them too... they lacked substance though... and for that reason they didn't last. But through tai's seeing eyes he saw Sora... her heart broke each day she saw matt look to one of them, just as tai's heart broke each night he looked at her. The circle of misery continued onward as a vast parade of agony. There they were the three friends who were forever locked in misery... it was a dance of sorrow that began with yamato and ended with Taichi.

Hearts are such fragile things... they exist as a great glassy orbs gently levitating over a sea of concrete. It takes so little to send them spiraling downward to the cold Stoney earth. Tai had known that love was like this... he had shed enough tears to flow as a sea.... a sea of misery that he now swam. He wallowed in agony as he felt Sora fall deeper in love with matt and have her hopes crushed with each day. Tai felt her pain as it rippled through his soul.. Yet one day he had enough... he had always meant nothing, but she..... she was worth pain... he would sleep within a bed of razors for her... he knew that if she was happy then at least he could be happy for her and not suffer along side her.... they say misery loves company... well that is not true for Taichi Kamiya... if his only company in hell was Sora, then he would gladly wade through the lakes of fire to give her a boost into heaven. That was love... to loose all he cared for so that she would be happy. He would jump into hell itself for her. To save her one tear he would offer his soul at Satan's feet and beg for Sora's joy. What is love with out loss? Perhaps he would get the chance to give her happiness.... and for that chance his pain was inconsequential.....

He had found her standing outside the vacant building where matt's band rehearsed. It was there that she stood hesitantly. In her arms she held a large wrapped box. Tai had learned from her mother that Sora had spent all day in the kitchen baking and slaving before a fiery oven to make this present for him. Granted it was what you would expect from a quaint country girl and not a modern teenage girl. But for Sora it was a act of kindness and affection. She loved him enough to put forth real effort... not mearly buying him something. It was special for him... Tai had stood before her watching as she debated wether to deposit this gift into the nearest garbage can and run away back to her room where she could spend another afternoon moping. Tai felt his heart rip apart once again... he had hoped to see her without this expression.. She wanted to be with him so badly.....

Tai steeled his nerves as he approached her. The cold stung his face as he went forward. He was grateful for the small acts of mercy fate was willing to bestow upon him. It was cold... the cold would help to numb the skin.. Perhaps if it were cold enough it would be able to surpass the skin and numb his heart.. He would give anything for a brief break for this pain. Yet he drew nearer to her.

"Hey Sora...." she was caught off guard by his words. It was obvious that she was paying attention only to the door which she wanted to enter so desperately. She looked at him with a light blush on her angelic face. Tai debated wether it was due to the cold against her cheeks or to the romantic mind set she was in.. Despite his best efforts he knew that it was the ladder.

He listened to biyomon as she told him of Sora's predicament despite the obvious embarrassment of the human girl at her side. Digimon were interesting creatures.. As you speak to them they can seem so real and so human... yet they are truly not human... it is obvious by their failure to grasp the obvious traits of humanity... the concept of something being private is completely alien to them.... much as something being too painful to talk about. That was augumon's problem.. The lizard was able to sense physical distress effortlessly, yet he was completely unaware of the concept of emotional pain. He had always believed tai when he had been lied to.. as he watched Taichi sob for hours it was truly amazing that he was completely put off the track by Taichi telling him that there is something in his eye.

"Is this... true... Sora?" he asked hesitantly as if the answer were a venomous serpent willing to bite him for asking.

"Yes...." she whispered... it was such a soft and tiny word, yet to Taichi it impaled him as a spear through the heart. It had never hurt this bad before.... but as testament to his ability to act he was able to hide the pain.

"Sora, I can honestly tell you that matt would be lucky to have you as a girlfriend... I can't tell you to go in there... you have to do it for yourself...

Sora, believe me on this... he would be very lucky to have you..."

"Tai... I can't, I'm just not sure...." she paused as Taichi drew nearer and put his strong hands upon her shoulders. She looked at him softly with a strange question to the bizarre expression upon his face... he looked sad.... the expression was a faint one, yet as Sora caught it, she found it troubling.

"Sora... all I can tell you to do now is to follow your heart.... if it leads to matt... then follow it through that door... if it doesn't... I'll be here to keep you company...."

Their eyes met as Taichi smiled to her. He was awed by her eyes as they found his own... it was hard for him to look upon her... she was beautiful... an angel of fiery eyes and the most tender smile ever to bless the eyes of Taichi... yet as he looked upon that smile it broke his heart once again.. She whispered a soft "thank you" as she made her way to the door.

It was then that Taichi truly grasped the fact that she was not going to choose him... in the end he had achieved his goal.. Sora was happy... she was happy... but, from her happiness came his misery... he had wanted her heart to lead to him... yet the road of the heart led strait to yamato... his mind raced for actions as she glided ever-closer to the door... he wanted to run to her.. To take her into his arms and kiss her passionately. To tell her what he had dreamed to tell her for a thousand sleepless nights... yet as he watched her make her way to the door he found no words capable of being uttered...

The man who was mamed in a war can recall the day with effortless action the slightest of detail.. It is as though they could summon up the recollection of a solitary blade of lush green grass that simply caught their eye for half a heartbeat. It is the mind's way of holding on to the last memory of your legs or arms from before they were gone. Perhaps the faculty Taichi lost that day was the most dominant in life, far more so then an arm or leg... Taichi was robbed of his heart that day... and like any veteran of war he could recall without effort the feel of the grit beneath the rubber soles of his sneakers... the smell of the cool autumn air on that accursed day... it was all etched upon his agonized soul as clearly as crystal... Taichi had fought a war of love... and survived to return home as a cripple.

He simply smiled as he watched her wave a cute goodbye to him as she vanished beyond the darkened threshold of the door... she was gone.... gone from his dreams... gone from his hopes... but not gone from his heart... the heart is a remarkable organ... it can die a painful death upon jagged stones, then within the threshold of a moment, be healed enough to plummet once more.

"You really have grown up a lot tai...." the lizard chirped happily as Taichi remained fixed on the large door....

He paused as he closed his eyes slowly with great effort... Growing up means pain... it means abandoning your heart... it means bidding farewell to all that you love for the simple cause of maturity... that is how Taichi knew growing up... it wasn't the onset of hormones... it wasn't the addition of responsibility or self sufficiency... growing up simply meant you had surpassed your quota of pain to no longer be considered a child...

"Yeah..."

Taichi watched the days fly upon leathery wing.. They glided by at a staggering speed. This is how it was for others... not for the one among them who suffered in perfect silence...

They say life can fly swiftly when you are happy, yet it can plod along with a deep and weighted march when you are miserable... that is what Taichi had discovered... he felt time slow for him... time was a sinister monster... a torturer of the most horrific ability... the task master we know as father time is an effective monster... he was able to milk the pain from Taichi with each endless day and hellish night. You would think the pain of a lost love could vanish over time... yet the heart is a strange master... it can heal and it can break, and it knows no limit to endurance and no level of fatigue capable of ending the torment of lost love.

Taichi resumed his place as a silent watcher... he saw her as her heart swelled with a love that he could understand all too well... he loved her still... she was an angel to matt.. She would be there to hold him on his bad days and celebrate his triumphs.... yet that didn't hurt Taichi as deeply as it could have... he knew that pain was common... yet as a veteran of hell he could take all but the fights... Sora and matt fought, much like other couples they fought... but there was something in the passion of the fighting that frightened Taichi more then he could ever dare dream.... there was a lust to their bickering... a steady fire that existed within the aspect of the argument...

Sex.... it is a act shared by those who truly love one another... for this reason Taichi had shunned the idea of giving his innocence away to any other then his Sora... she was his angel... the only girl on the face of the world who he would love enough to share that side of himself with... but now there was a new pain with which tai could suffer.... Sora and matt making love.... the thought effected his stomach as a icy punch to the gut... he felt noshes at the idea of them together...

He had talked to Sora before as a friend and known quite clearly that she was a virgin... and she would choose to remain one until she met the one she truly loved enough to share herself with....

What if she chose matt for this...

Taichi stared out over the terrace with a sudden darkness at the image... he had suffered so much.. He had endured hell upon his shoulders.... pure anguish.... he felt rage burn within his heart as he stood up defiantly to the heavens....

"NO...." he choked out hatefully to whatever force had chosen him to fall so deeply in love with someone who would never see him as anything but a friend. He challenged fate with the one word... he would not allow himself to endure this any further... he felt his heart throb in his chest as he contemplated the truth... he would hurt everyone... his parents.... Kari... But he no longer cared... he had suffered so much... he had endured for so long that the idea of death seemed like release from the agony his heart now forced him through.... suicide... such a horrible word.... but if this act of desperation could save him from the idea of Sora committing in both body and soul to matt then it was a gesture of mercy...

He sat alone in his room... he had taken all the precautions... the house was empty.... he had left letters to them all... he had explained that he simply could not live with the pressure of life anymore... this was a lie... he hated the idea of lying to his mother the very last time he would communicate with her... but it was better then making it clear to them all that his Sora was the cause of it....

The notes were lined up neatly on the livingroom table... from matt to Kari... he had told them the lie... and wished them well. He had written to each of them with a few kind and loving last words... but to Sora... her note was the shortest of them all. No more then five words... these words were simply his last way of sharing his deepest secret. He wanted her to know...

"I'll always love you Sora...."

He smiled softly.... it was time to say goodbye to the pain... the cancer of agony which writtled his body was about to vanish... the pain... the loss... the life that was a waste... all were at their ends...

He sat on the plush carpet as he reached to the cold weapon... he had always known where his father had hidden his gun... now that knowledge would serve him well....

He lifted the cold grey revolver.. It was like a piece of ice in his hand... he tested its weight in his hand carefully... it had a sense of balance to it... a perfect symmetry with which he longed to experiment with.. It was a grim curiosity... this would be the instrument with which he would die... strangely he was not afraid as he lifted the weapon once more.. He loaded it slowly and carefully... the shells were of icy bronze as well... he felt no menace from the gun... it was unreal...

He drew in a deep breath as he lifted the muzzle to his soft tan forehead.....

"Goodbye.... my Sora...."

time stopped..

Some believe that god takes actions at certain points in life... strange and unpredictable miracles.... a child falls down a flight of steps and is saved by forces never explainable in the field of science... it can be classified only as a simple act of god..... he is a father who takes us into his strong hands in hour times of need... and he acts on our behalf in ways we cannot explain...

And thus for Taichi Kamiya... servant to justice and right... and to others he was taken into that shielding hand and defended from his own actions... it came to be known to Taichi as a second calling... not an act of mercy... but an act of need... he would be needed again.. And thus his death would be, by divine order, postponed until the final act of heroics could be made....

Now it could have been a breeze... or perhaps a slight tremor in the buildings foundations... or maybe a final breath of the air conditioner... but by chance... or by god's will it happened... from the dresser it glided down slowly to him. It danced as a leaf in the wind as it made small descending circles along the path to earth... yet Taichi gasped as he felt the picture land effortlessly in his lap... the photo was old and faded... but as Taichi stared at it his eyes filled with tears....

Two children arm in arm.... a boy... a girl... their arms were locked to one another in a loving embrace shared only by the best of friends... Sora and Taichi were both five at the time of the photo... they were smiling happily together... they were innocent... yet even in the gossamer innocents we posses as a child Taichi recalled holding his breath as he felt her in his arms...

He felt his eyes burn with hot tears as he gave out a raged cry. He heaved the gun away from himself.. The instrument of release slid harmlessly across the ground until it came to rest amidst a pile of cloths... the steely viper now lay still upon the earth.. Its fangs no longer beared...

He summoned all the might he possessed and managed to daintily lift the weapon and return it to its hiding place within his father's dresser... he took hold of the letters and gingerly placed them away beneath his mattress where they could be resurrected when he developed nerve enough to finish the act...

He sighed heavily as he plodded to the shower... stripping of his clothing he crawled inside... he slumped onto his haunches upon the cool surface of the shower floor. His hand found the controls and began turning the hot water nob... from the mouth of the nozzle the scalding water poured over his naked frame... it was comforting... though in some ways the heat was painful, it was also enough to silence the throbbing pain he felt inside for a time... he remained there... curled into a ball of shivering flesh as he felt the hot water cascade down over his muscular frame.. His hair hung against his face as he allowed the water to trail down him and into his partly open mouth... he sighed softly at the heat... the water was at its hottest and yet it was cold to him... he craved heat now... some way to warm the void of coldness that existed within him as a hollow void... yet he knew all the hot showers in the world would do him no good in the efforts to ward away this winter cold... and thus he allowed himself to rest his troubled brow against the tile wall of the stall... and as he did he felt himself sink into the deepest sleep of his life...

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at eight Taichi was roused from his now cold shower by the shrill cry of his phone... he snarled at it as he rose up from the cold waters which had managed to numb away the feeling in his legs... he slapped the nob to off, ceasing the flow of very cold water... tai had began to re-think the idea of allowing himself to sleep in the shower.. The water had just been too warm and relaxing... but now as Taichi cursed random choice words at his stiffened muscles which now hung painfully tight against his frame. He labeled it as he had labeled drinking away problems... a good idea only at the time... Taichi had tried once to drink away his problems... however he found it was less a way to forget the angelic girl and more a way to develop a tremendous headache...

There are no shortcuts to pain.. The bite can be delayed as one can delay a creditor... yet in the end it always comes back at you with interest... such was drinking... a way to delay your agony just long enough for it to get that much more painful...

Tai reached to the counter where he retrieved a pair of faded boxers... still mostly asleep he fumbled his way into the undergarments... then trotted over to the phone.. He yawned heavily as he lifted the receiver to his ear...

"Hello..."

nothing

"Hello, Kamiya residence.. Taichi speaking...."

Nothing....

He was about to hang up when a soft voice broke through the soft static background of the line.. The voice was no louder then a whisper.. And it was obvious from the reception that it was a cellular call.. The voice was a soft one... a sad one... the words gave away tears... and as the weak voice muttered out some incomprehensible words Taichi recognized the voice... it was a soft voice.. A voice he could pick from a crowd with effortless action... it was the voice of the one he loved.. The one he lost... the one he was called to rescue again....

"Sora?.... Sora!?!"

"Tai..." the meek voice whispered...

"Sora, w-what's wrong?!?" he asked with a hint of growing panic...

"Oh Taichi.... Please help... I'm scared...." she sobbed.

"Where are you Sora?!?...." he choked out as he felt a rage burn within him... someone had hurt her... someone would pay...

Nothing....

"SORA" he barked out as more an order to speak then a request...

"Matt's studio...."

"I'll be there in five minutes...."

As the phone landed atop the receiver tai lost control of his actions... he felt himself moving by a power he didn't know he had.. He dressed and ran from the apartment at speeds he had never before known... he was vaguely aware how his white canvas shirt now clung to his still wet body... or how his ling hair was now matted to his face and shoulders in slick brown tendrils of soaking wet hair.

He mounted his motorcycle faster then he had ever dreamed... the bike was a glossy black shimmering piece of speed... tai had began to turn to racing as a means to escape life... thus the machine was tweaked out to the point where it could move as black lightning...

He had raced against some of the best on the streets of japan... the contests were illegal of corse.. Yet they moved around so frequently and were very well organized that the police were hard pressed to find them... the rules were virtually none... your bike.. Your life... you get to the finish first.. You win the pot... Taichi had become one of the best... he had long since cared for life... thus he went faster and harder then any other...where others would slow, he would accelerate... also the digital world had conditioned him to this.. He was able to think see and act faster... he could take more... his reflexes were automatic as he would weave between cars buildings and others without the slightest hesitation... and thus... every month he raked in around ten thousand dollars of pure winnings...

Yet now he was racing for her... She needed him and he was not going to be late.. He pushed it faster then even he had dared go... the engine screamed as he shot threw traffic... he would weave through cars as if they were standing still... the bike and the rider were one... Taichi flew through lights and traffic as if it were not even there...

Time moved at stride with the throbbing engine as it accelerated... he soon caught sight of the studio matt's group had been practicing at.. Within a heartbeat he was inside the building breaking into a run... he knew the general location of where matt was practicing.. Thus he charged down the halls like lightning... the complex was huge yet soon tai found himself there... his breathing was shallow as he caught sight of matt who was frantically waving him over... the blond was afraid... he wore the fear upon his crystalline blue eyes as one might wear a brand...

"Oh god tai...."

"What happened?!" he barked out in a commanding voice...

The two began running down the hall to the dressing room with matt guiding them as he spoke...

"Sora and I were making out.... it got kinda hot and we started... well you know..." he was blushing lightly as he spoke... unaware of the fact that Taichi's fists were now white with rage as he ran... Taichi became vaguely aware of a desire to stop right now and kill matt in cold blood, yet by sheer will he was able to keep stride...

"Well things were getting heavy and I was about to take off her shirt when I saw the marks on her arms...."

"What the hell are you talking about!?!?"

"Sora's been... hurting herself....." tai paled...

"I didn't know I swear... some girls just get lost in the crowd.. It happened to a friend of mine.. These sweet girls get put next to the type of girls who hang with bands... Sora's hot... but these girls are pros.... well some times the girls start cutting themselves... it's a form of self mutilation.. It's kinda a mental thing..." matt spoke sickly as he ran...

Taichi was afraid now... he had not been afraid for a long time... but he was truly scared now... the images of what matt was saying began to sink into his mind with grizzly imagery...

"She noticed that I saw the scars... she ran and locked herself in the bathroom... tai... I'm afraid she is going to kill herself...." he choked out as they came to a stop at the bathroom door... tai tried the nob only to find it securely locked....

tai glanced around the room... it was plastered with various posters and other such paraphernalia as you would find plastered upon a growing band's dressing rooms.. Tai felt ill... he could vaguely remember hearing a news report on this... self mutilation was considered a mental problem.. Like anorexia... Sora had been put amongst these people... and it was obvious the position of girlfriend to the lead singer was a hard one to fill... she had began to despise herself for every flaw upon her soft features... this self hate swelled heavily to the point that she would actually hurt herself... the thought was a horrific one to Taichi.. He had always found her truly beautiful... the idea that she could see herself so ugly as to hurt herself frightened him... he loved her.. Her skin was precious to him... and now as he came to the image of her cutting that skin made him want to scream in fear for the life more sacred then his own.....

"SORA!!" he howled as he beat his fist against the door...

The silence was defining as he began to beat against the door once more... she wasn't answering... the silence terrified him... it could imply so much.... she could be lying there bleeding and dead.... he would never see her again..... the silence fell upon him as he was vaguely aware of matt mentioning that she had stopped talking half an hour ago.... that silence would forever be recollected by Taichi as the most terrifying sound he would ever hear... it called to him as a demonic voice, singing in joyous discord to Taichi's pain and Sora's death... tai continued to plead with her from the threshold... he had continued to beat upon the door until his knuckles bled... and even then he continued...

"Sora... please talk to me... I'm scared Sora...." he broke down as he lay his hand against the strong door.

"I shouldn't have called you Taichi..." a meek voice whispered from behind the frame of the solid door.

"Oh god Sora... I thought you were...."

"Please Taichi... leave..." her words were spoken in a deep sob as he winced at the word's pain...

"Sor... I can't do that...."

"Please open the door Sora... I am so worried about you..." he whispered softly...

"What do you care!?!" she snarled out with obvious pain in her voice...

"I care.... I care because I love you!" he yelled out as tears poured from his soft chocolate eyes..

Matt gasped softly as he heard Taichi confess that to his girlfriend. And as he looked at Taichi it was painfully obvious to him that it was true... every memory of their past interactions flew back to him... and it was obvious by the observations that Taichi truly had loved Sora... he had cried for her when he almost lost her... he had disregarded matt when Sora was crying over her crest... he had been the one to comfort her and as matt recalled the incident through his mind's eye... tai had held her as she sobbed... their hands had locked for a time... and Sora had taken solace in his touch.... the realization hit matt hard... Taichi had always been there for her... and he had gone so far that he had given Sora the courage to step through the door that day....

"Liar...." Sora whispered softly.

"You just don't want me to hurt myself...."

"Damn right I don't... but I do love you...." he pleaded...

"I can't believe you Taichi...."

"DAMN YOU SORA... I have never once lied to you... you're beautiful..."

"Now I know you're lying....."

"Let me finish.... you are beautiful in every way.... I have looked at you for years Sora... I see how you care for others without limit... I saw how you were a mother to TK.... how you were the rock I could always depend on..." he paused as his eyes slipped shut...

"You have meant the world to me for years Sora...and you have been killing me for years... I have loved you so much it hurt... you know that feeling... it is what you once felt for matt... your heart feels broken... like it is impaled.. You cry and cry... and you try to think of something else but it's useless... there is a part missing... you can feel it inside as you sleep... as you wake... with each breath the hollowness throbs inside....

I have watched you love him for years... and ever look you gave him killed me... it's like I died each time.... and in the end I gave up so you would be happy with the one you were meant for.... I should have died in the digital world Sora... there's nothing for me here.... I lead the digidestined for you... I only cared about getting you home... I almost wish I had never made it back...

I watched as you fell more and more in love.... and I was truly afraid of watching you fall deeper in love.. I was truly terrified of seeing the only girl I can love in love with another... but Sora... today I have something new that I am afraid of....." he paused as his eyes fell to the ground beneath him...

"Today I thought I might loose you for good... Sora that is my true fear... waking up to a world which you are not a part.... Sora. love matt... but please... don't do this to me... I think I can take the pain of losing your heart... but not losing your life..."

She said nothing....

"DAMMIT, I told you once to follow your heart... so I am telling you to do it again! Look inside your heart Sora Takenouchi, bearer of the crest of love! Your heart is the most true and pure of all hearts.. Look to it now! I know it doesn't tell you to end your life... Sora if I have ever mattered to you at all I beg you to do this for me now!!!

FOLLOW YOUR HEART!!" he broke down to tears as he slumped to his knees before the door... he cried there... cried his fears.. Fears not of selfishness but of love... his fears of losing Sora...

The silence was broken by the clicking sound of the latch... his red eyes looked up to her and found an angel staring down at him... she dropped to her knees as she embraced him... he cried against her shoulder as she stroked his hair lovingly... she embraced him happily as her arms took him in....

"Tai... I did follow my heart... it just took a while to lead to where it really belongs..." she whispered into his damp hair...

"Yeah?"

"And guess where it lead me... right to the one boy who has always loved me... right to you..." she kissed his forehead tenderly as she continued to sooth him...

"I love you...Taichi Kamiya."

"I have waited my whole life to hear that... Sora Takenouchi."

She softly brushed the damp tendrils of chestnut hair from hie face.. Then as softly as a shadow glides across the skin her lips met his in a kiss born of true love.. They kissed as children.. There was no lust... simply love.... a love he had wanted to know for as long as he lived... a love she had longed to know... a true love.. One where she would feel.... that she belonged.

As their lips hesitantly parted Sora smiled out a question she had longed to ask her true love....

Tai smiled softly as he lifted her to her feet... Yet he suddenly became aware of her arms... they were cris-crossed with crimson wounds... soft tributaries of blood trailed from her arms to her stained sweater... Taichi immediately examined the wounds as a medic... Sora gasped as Taichi pulled the shirt from his back... he immediately ripped the sleeve off and began the act of forming crude bandages... the wounds were shallow... They would not require hospitalization...

Sora gaped at her "best friend" as his strong muscles rippled as he shredded the last of his shirt for bandages... he began to gingerly dress her wounds. It was obvious he was doing quite well under joe's tutelage in field dressings... Taichi smiled at his handiwork as he blushed at the direction of the young Takenouchi's gaze...

Sora's gaze fell upon yamato who was now making his way down the long hall. His hair glistened softly in the dim light as Sora suddenly called out his name.. She remained tightly bound to Taichi's arms as she yelled out to him...

"Matt!..."

" I know Sora... I have always had a knack for spotting a losing battle.... and this is a fight I could never win.... you followed your heart... it led to him...

Sora, I did love you... but in the end... it was Taichi who you let in.... it was him who you would talk to... it was to him that your heart led... goodbye Sora Takenouchi...."

"Good bye yamato....." she whispered as she looked to tai... his eyes were asking her softly if she wanted to run to him.... matt was leaving... and she had the choice between the two boys.... yet as she felt Taichi's strong arms release her to him... yet as she was free once more to yamato... she found that she had no desire to give chase... she turned to Taichi as he mouthed out a old quote...

"If you love something set it free...." he whispered softly...

"And if it truly loves you, it will return..." she whispered against him as for the first time she knew where home was... home was with him.. It was the place where the heart dwells.... for so long she had not known the whereabouts of the heart... yet now it was clear... her heart beat alongside his within the frame of his chest..."can we go home now?" "Yeah....we can..." he whispered happily to her... and with that the two departed together.....

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Sora sat obediently atop the cold counter as Taichi methodically examined her wounds. She looked down at him with amazement... he was so oblivious to his effects on her body. As his fingers danced against her stomach while he examined a series of faded scars.. Yet his soft touch was as ice to her skin as he lovingly touched her body. His fingers enticed and aroused her as they playfully traced each of her scars. She was amazed by him... he had seen her at her worst and yet he didn't judge or label her... the scars were to him beautiful for they were now a part of her.. Yet as he touched her he was an angel... he made no effort to take advantage of the fact that she was sitting before him in nothing but her underwear. He was gentle as he touched her... but Sora felt a growing hunger within that she had never before felt.. Though his actions were innocent, they were more then enough to cause a great swelling heat within her. His touch was like a thousand electrical sparks of love which ignited a great heaving pyre of passion and lust.

Sora suddenly became aware of the feverish longing within herself. Tai was arousing her to new peaks of the word's possible meaning. Her hand moved to his face and began to stroke his cheek. He looked up to her with question, yet as he looked into her eyes he paled at the expression. She looked to be a hungry animal as she gazed at him with lust in her burning crimson eyes. She wanted him so much... he had been her knight when she needed saving.. Yet now as she looked at him she felt a need to show him how much she loved him back... he had waited years for her.. She couldn't deny him any longer, she didn't want to. She took his head in her hands and moved him to meet her lips. He was stunned at first, yet soon he began kissing deeply into her mouth. Her tongue caressed his as the two danced within their locked mouths as they passionately kissed. His hands began to travel her body as he ran his strong hands against her sides. She moaned softly against his mouth as he used a strange magic on her. His hands were the instruments of this magic.. They could read her mind, knowing exactly where she wanted to be touched and how.

Taichi reluctantly pulled from her lips as he began to kiss her neck hungrily. He was amazingly in tune with her.. He knew what she wanted.. Though he didn't know how he knew exactly. He gently traveled down her neck placing soft kisses and nips along the path. She whimpered lightly as she felt him tenderly kiss each of her scars. It was important for him to make her feel loved and beautiful. And as he looked at the scared pink flesh he knew that he loved each of these wounds for they were a part of her. He made a serious effort to kiss every blemish upon her smooth skin, and he loved the effort immensely. As his lips came to the dark fabric of her sports bra he grinned devilishly as he glanced upward to her lust filled eyes. He began to nibble at her strap as she giggled lightly. He traveled down her slowly as his lips began to kiss her tight stomach muscles. The muscles danced against his soft lips as he listened to Sora's soft moaning.

Sora suddenly regained enough control as to put both hand on his head. She stroked his soft hair lovingly. He glanced up to meet her eyes. She smiled down to him tenderly. As he regained enough composure to speak. His voice was deep and husky as he spoke.

"Sora... are you sure you want to do this? You know I'll love you no less if you want to wait..." he slowly rose up to meet her eye to eye... Sora was amazed by him. He was giving her a way out if she wanted it. As she looked at him she could see the beads of sweat on his forehead. It was obvious he wanted her... but it was even more obvious he wanted her to love him. That meant not pushing her into this. Sora urged him upward to meet his lips, which he readily did. He took her lips to his own and hungrily kissed her. The kiss was electrifying to the two. Sora had felt so un-loveable before... yet here she was in the arms of one of the most attractive guys in her school who was truly in love with her. Taichi wanted her... he loved her. Sora had questioned it before... he could have mearly been lying to save her life. Yet as she looked into his eyes she saw the truth. She knew boys are often ruled by their sex drives, yet though tai wanted her, he loved her more.

"Taichi... I love you. I am so sorry that I wasn't able to see that before now... I love you, and I want to share this with you." she paused as she smiled softly to him...

"Make love to me.. My Taichi..."

He smiled warmly to her words as he drew her into his arms like some white knight from some forgotten fairy tale... Sora responded to the image by pressing herself to his strong chest.. She felt herself lifted effortlessly and carried as one might carry a great treasure of fine silks and other precious trinkets... he was shirtless already and as he held her to him she had time to fully experience the boy's torso.. He was muscular, yet it was a lean muscle.. Not the bulky build of a weightlifter, but the tight framework of a athlete... Sora had seen tai shirtless before... yet he had never been anything sexual... yet as she looked at him now she became aware of him in a new light.

Taichi's flat stomach was lined with muscles of bronze skin.. He had the makings of a incredible man upon the frame of his teenage body... Sora grinned playfully as she let her hand travel his chest... he had no hair upon his chest. She ran her fingers across his chest. They danced from his two dark brown nipples. Sora giggled lightly as she felt Taichi draw in and hold a sharp breath as the skin hardened under her fingertips. The digits resumed their playful trek until she was deposited softly onto Taichi's soft quilted bed. She smiled up at him as he marveled down on her. She breathed in the air happily... it was sweet, smelling of Taichi.. The blue fabric of the soft mattress was warm on Sora's virtually nude frame.

She opened her arms signaling Taichi to lay beside her... he complied happily as he took place at her side upon the flat of his back, quickly kicking away the jeans he had once worn leaving him only in his briefs. Sora crawled to the headboard of the large bed and retrieved a pillow which she offered Taichi to rest his head upon. Once he was comfortable she whispered a soft I love you into his ear before claiming his lips. He moaned softly into her mouth as he reveled in the dream made real of Sora's kiss... she was a playful girl... Taichi had enjoyed this sense of mischief considerably during their friendship... but he enjoyed it on a whole new level now that the friendship he so loved had blossomed to love... she began trailing down his abdomen with a series of kisses and nips to his tender flesh.. Taichi found he could barley breath like this... Sora glanced up at him cutely as she was in mid-nibble to his slightly protruding bellybutton. It was at that point Taichi decided he was dating the most adorable girl in the world...

She smiled softly as she ran her index finger along the fabric of his briefs... they glided at the point where flesh meets fabric as delicately as a shadow glides across the skin during the coarse of a warm autumn day... she giggled lightly as she made her way back up Taichi's body to the lips she had developed a taste for... she slipped a leg over his stomach as she smiled down on him. Taichi grinned as he leaned up to kiss her. The union of their lips was so magical to the two that it was able to stifle any attempt to speak... words could not be uttered as they took turns kissing their partner.. And that is truly what they were.... he was not the solitary leader anymore.. And she was not the fragile moral officer.... they were equals... friends.... allies... partners... lovers....

Tai smirked devilishly as he put his hands to her back and managed to stealthily switch positions. He grinned deviously as he began ravaging her neck with loving kisses. He paused as his lips came to the dark fabric of her sports bra.. His lips lingered there in suspended animation as he glanced up to her deeply blushing expression... words were not needed... somehow he knew exactly what to do... he made no effort to remove the fabric as of yet.. He would not push her to the step of actually disrobing... she must make the choice... each step must be made of free will and not pressure.... but as Taichi continued nibbling at the fabric and placing kisses so close to the sensitive flesh Sora threw her head back and moaned deeply in pleasure...

Her head was spinning as she felt each sensation... the feel of the cool sheets beneath her meshed with the heat of the moment as Taichi's hot kisses sizzled against her shivering flesh... she became aware of something poking her sharply in the thigh as she moved under Taichi's expert lips.. It took her a moment to fully realize what the object was... and as the realization hit her she began to blush crimson.. It was so alien to her to imagine that she was the cause for his arousal.. She reached lower more from curiosity then of lust.. Taichi froze as he felt her take him into her grip.. He stared at her in stunned disbelief as he felt her hand slowly explore Taichi in a way she had never imagined... the thin fabric of the cotton briefs did little to shield the heat which transferred from the organ to Sora's gentle hand... she smiled at his features as they relaxed slowly. His eyes slipped shut as he moaned softly from within the back of his throat...

Her eyes fell upon the soft smile upon his thin lips as he remained in the blissful stillness her touch was somehow able to bring him.... as she continued to gently touch him through the thin fabric her eyes never once left his face... the same face she remembered from childhood was now contorting in a pleasant expression... her mind was overwhelmed by her own actions.. Yet as she continued to register that she was giving her love pleasure a question arose in her innocent mind... "how could anyone find this sick or wrong?" she drew her lips to his in a light kiss as she continued the slow exploration of this new side to Taichi Kamiya... he was still in his pleasure induced trance as Sora slowly gripped the elastic band of his underwear... she hesitantly pulled the fabric away from him leaving him free to her...

Her eyes were wide as she got her first glimpse at Taichi's shaft... she had known the image only in her health class text book.... and then she had recalled her thinking that she would never understand half of the stories she had heard about what girls do with their boyfriends... it just seemed too bizarre to be true... yet now as she was there... as she was caressing the body of the only boy who was worthy of sharing her innocense and her love with... she understood the simple satisfaction of taking these first steps into this brave new world of adulthood with Taichi at her side... they were partners... they would make this journey together... her eyes moved up from the object of her curiosity back to the face of the angelic young man. He was looking at her now with a soft expression upon his loving face.. A question etched onto his features... Taichi was a virgin, just as Sora was... by allowing her access to all he had he made himself vulnerable to her... should she laugh now tai was fully aware he would turn to liquid and sink through the wooden floor underneath... a thousand insecurities raced through his mind as the second lagged onward to an eternity... he searched her eyes for disappointment.. Yet was astonished to find none whatsoever... she mearly smiled and kissed his lips affectionately.

"I love you tai.. You're all I could have ever hoped... all and more.." she whispered softly into his hair as he began running his hands along her thin frame.

Taichi softly lowered her to her back as he began the task of fulfilling his most secret of dreams.. Sora cooed softly as she felt tai's lips against her rapidly rising and falling stomach. She moaned softly as Taichi continued to trace little patterns in her skin with his lips.. His eyes glanced up to hers in question as she smiled at him lovingly.

"You can open your present now tai..." she chucked

"My, how dramatic of you...." he smirked as he ran his hands across her cheek.

His attention rapidly returned to her.. And with trembling fingers he slipped his hands behind her back.. Sora was blushing brightly as she felt him pull away the fabric.. It was in moments like this that Taichi and Sora both never felt so childlike.. As the implications of their actions hit them both discovered they were completely unable to ward off the deep red volcanic blush upon their cheeks... yet as tai glanced down over her his breath left him...

"You're beautiful..." he gaped as his eyes studied her. He had a twinge of pain in his mind as he studied her... she had the same pinkish scars over much of her body... her stomach bore a collection of wounds that were directly the result of Taichi's stupidity... he hadn't seen this coming... yet he was given the opportunity to make amens... he could show her how loved she is... and he could love her so much that she would never feel the need to do this to herself again. And plus.. He was planning on doing that anyway. Beyond the scars he saw her... her curves were perfect as he stared in awe at her small and well perportuned breasts.. Her skin was a soft ivory in the light as he tried in desperation to move.. She was perfect... strangely by contrast to the beauty of her body, the scars seem strangely attractive...

He summoned the will to move and knelt before her on the soft fabric of the bed. He was unsure exactly how he knew what to do, but he did... his face was mearly inches from her soft skin as he glanced up to her eyes. She smiled softly as signal that it was alright for him to continue. He slowly lowered his lips to the soft pink flesh of her mounded breast. Sora's eyes went wide as she felt the warmth of his mouth take in the tender flesh. She threw her head back in ecstasy as he continued to kiss and suckle upon her soft breast while massaging the second with his free hand..

Sora writhed beneath him in the heats of a new found passion Taichi was somehow able to induce within her... she gasped in air with a frenzied pace as she was aware of his loving ministrations. She was amazed... matt had never gotten anywhere near this close to her... yet by comparison to their kisses and loving acts... she could easily isolate her favorite of the two.. Matt was too aggressive in his romance... he rushed into kissing much as he rushed into and through every other good part of dating... there was a certain enjoyable quality to aggressiveness, yet it got too far when he began casually pushing her to sex... the determination on his part was his greatest failing.. For as he tried pushing Sora to this new level it only advertised his shortcomings... Taichi however was his exact opposite... he was gentle and slow in the art of love... something about him made Sora want him more and more.. He was matt's stellar opposite.

Tai drew out the act of lovemaking to its utmost. It was so slow and delicate that it pushed Sora's body to the edge of madness.. They were not even to the main event yet.. And she was already lost in more pleasure and passion then she ever dreamed. The lust swelled within her as she marveled at the skilled lips of Taichi... he was able to evoke feelings of love, lust, and pleasure that Sora had never come close to realizing... he ran his skilled hands against skin he had never dared imagine before... and Sora responded to these new sensations with a pleading moan, begging for him to continue... pleading for him to never stop these acts of passion and love.

A silence fell over the two as they realized it was time to take the step.. The step Sora was unwilling to make with matt... the step Taichi had deemed impossible with Sora... the step that they were at now... the step that they each longed to make with every fiber of their being.

Taichi reached to his dresser at the side of his bed. He began fishing around within the clutter until he smiled triumphantly and withdrew a box of condoms. Sora burst into laughter as she looked at the large box worth of never opened condoms.

"Planning something were you?" she laughed as she ruffled Taichi's hair playfully.

"Oh yeah, for months now... getting mom, dad, and Kari out of the house... organizing this whole matt thing... setting it up so I can come to your rescue... I've been busy." he chuckled as he joked.

"You know mr. Kamiya... you would have made a truly incredible dark master with that devious mind of yours...." she replied as she kissed him playfully...

"What can I say... you bring out the best of me.."

Taichi plucked a foil package from the open box with a look of question on his features.

"You know we don't have to do this Sora? We can wait for as long as you want." he offered.

She smiled softly as she stole the package from his grip. Her lips pulled upward into a sweet and loving smile.

"I've waited for you long enough tai...." he nodded happily as he lay upon the mattress giving her access to him.

She awed at his body for a moment. He was fully aroused and it amazed her that she was the cause... she had found herself so ugly and plain for so long.. Yet here she was.. On the verge of both giving her virginity to the boy she loved, and receiving his as well. He lusted for her.. Her... Sora Takenouchi, most ordinary of the ordinary teenage girls was now a part of something extraordinary. She was with the popular Taichi Kamiya.. And together they would be something new... something special and unbreakable... something destined to be...

She smiled softly as she ripped the foil package carefully. Taking the condom in her hands she carefully applied it to him. She was amazed by the feel of him.. It was something like silk over steel as she touched the throbbing organ. She recalled everything from health class, romance stories she had read over the Internet, conversations with friends.... they all merged together into some vast array of details she now tried to call back.. She just hoped her unsureness was not so obvious to Taichi...

but coexisting with those thoughts was Taichi... he had offered her several ways out... he had agreed to not tell about the cutting provided she swear to him it would never happen again. He was slow and took his time with her so she would be ready for each step they made... and he had been prepared... it was important to Sora that when she lost her virginity it would not be another teenage sex story... it would be a romance story... and it would be a responsible one... they were using protection, completely monogamous, and were both deeply in love... this set them apart from many other couples who bumbled into sex without precaution or foresight...

She delayed no longer as she rolled the condom down over him. He whimpered lightly as he felt the sheath against his heated skin. Their eyes locked as they took position with Sora just barley above him. She reached her hand out and brushed his cheek affectionately, he mimicked the act...

It was then that they each fully realized this was their last moment to decide... it took tai no time to fully grasp that he was ready. He leaned forward and kissed her cheek as he awaited her final decision if she would be ready for this..

Her mind flashed through a thousand images...

Her mother and the child Sora in the flower garden.. The woman was planting daisies while casting the occasional glance to her young daughter who was balancing a soccer ball on her head. Sora was giggling happily as she played quietly next to her mother...

She saw biyomon.. The pink bird was trotting happily at her side chattering happily about the Digiworld.. Sora smiled happily at the memory...

Matt.... the face of her first boyfriend... she saw him from the stage at his first concert. She recalled being so proud of him... so amazed that he was making a dream of his actually come true.. Yet as she paused from her act of flirting from across the stage her eyes traveled the crowd.. Her eyes went from face to face... yet paused at one face in particular. Tai's.. She never realized how obvious it was... he was sad... the face was that of longing and pain... and as Sora relived the image she saw tears in his eyes as he stared at her... she had never asked him what was wrong.. For all her love for friends and of those friends her best friend she had never asked... the excitement must have been more powerful then the concern.... for as she recalled the evening it was spent drooling at yamato... Sora paled at the memory as it returned to her for the first time. Taichi had always loved her... and it was time for her to return the love she had failed to see..

Her thoughts went to tai... he had always been there for her... he always loved her more then anything... loved her so much in fact that he sacrificed his happiness for her... she saw him for the first time... from the Digiworld when he both saved and comforted her... he had always been there.. Her best friend... her first true love... her only love... her Taichi...

She looked down on him with loving eyes as she awed at him.. For all the pain she had caused the boy, he still loved her all the more... it was the first time Sora had known truly what unconditional love was.... she kissed him softly as she drew her lips to his ear. "I love you..."

As the words left her lips she thrust downward onto him. She yelped as the searing pain hit her. It was as though she were being split apart from the inside.. It was a throbbing pain that caused every muscle in her body to tighten with pain.. Her eyes were screwed tightly shut as she squeezed Taichi to death. The boy acted on impulse with her.. He drew her into his arms careful not to move his lower torso which would be painful for her at the moment. She was pressed tightly to him as he began whispering soft reassurances while stroking her hair lovingly. It horrified him that he was the cause of this pain within her. Yet it also pushed his restraint to the limit.. he was tied to her now.. He could feel the tightness engulf him within Sora.. She was wet and warm and every shuddering movement she innocently made sent a great wave of pleasure through him. His body wanted to begin thrusting into her yet his mind and heart held him in place..

Moments moved as days... the conflict raged within Taichi... every part of him that was male needed to posses her now... to make her his in every way... yet every fiber of his being loved Sora.. He couldn't force this.. Thus he concentrated on the sensations that he felt from his stationary position within her.

He tried to form words.. Words capable of giving light to the reality of being tied to Sora in this way.. She felt as a part of him,, a part he had been missing... She was warm and tight against his thick shaft. Tai mused at the reality of the fact that they were made for one another... Taichi was buried to the base within Sora.. He was the exact length of her expansive tunnel. The odds of this were almost impossible... he fit her perfectly... she was tight around him, yet her muscular passage way was not so tight as to cause pain beyond that of the loss of virginity. They were a match.. His length was sheathed perfectly within her.. And as he felt her warmth transfer into his own body he realized he would never be the same. She had concluded a chapter of his life.. The chapter spent alone. Now he realized he had a whole new world to explore... a world in which only he and Sora belonged... He moaned out a low growl as he felt her muscles contract over him.

He was broken from his thoughts of this new love and trying to describe the feelings of her as she slowly raised herself on him. The feeling was incredible as he felt her tight muscles pull him up with her. He groaned in delicious agony as he felt every fiber of his body tremble in a pleasure he had never before experienced. Sora too seemed to be thoroughly enjoying this newfound pleasure. Her eyes found his with a look of amazed excitement at what she was able to do for both of them. just one movement was capable of sending them both into a temporary state of pure bliss. Her eyes were like the eyes of a child upon making a new and fantastic discovery. She was exited to explore the new feelings they could induce.

Tai allowed his eyes to slip shut lightly as he pulled down with his hips. Sora moaned softly as she slowly slid back down onto him. A shiver of ecstasy made its way through Taichi as he cast a quick grin to Sora who mirrored it... they hadn't even started yet... they were mearly testing the waters before they fully delved into the sea of pleasure and intimacy.

"You're perfect Sora Takenouchi..." he accentuated his words by a quick thrust forward which sent Sora off whimpering in pleasure...

Sora was the one in control here... Taichi knew the first time would be painful for her.. Thus he tried to position it so that the majority of the actions where hers to begin... Sora was sitting on her knees straddling Taichi at the hips.. This made her responsible for the majority of the act of lovemaking... plus besides the fact that Sora might be hurt further if he humored his desire to truly show her what he was capable of doing with the endurance and strength of an athlete.. He chucked lightly that he would save that one for a later occasion.

But regardless they slowly began the act of making love to one another.. Their movements were slow and hesitant at first... each unsure of what the other was truly feeling... yet soon they discovered a slow rithem they would make.. It was nothing like Taichi had dreamed... he had known it would feel good and be kinda tight and wet.. But dear god he had no idea exactly how those mechanical descriptions were lacking.. That would be as pathetic as describing the ocean as wet and big... making love to her he realized that what it was to truly love her.. To want to be a part of her...

Perhaps that is what the act of mating is... Taichi recalled biology class... lower life spawn or reproduce without the act of uniting... but the higher animals connect to their mate.. It was almost poetic in design that one would merge into the other to create new life.. That was what he was doing now, though not the whole making new life thing.. That would come later in life for them.. But the act of joining Sora... being a part of the one he loved so truly was something he had never thought of... and though it sounded strange to him.. The idea felt right...

He continued pumping in and out of her, relishing each movement. Sora was his first.. And certainly his last.. But she was as he decided, the best, most beautiful, and gifted lover in the entire world.. There was a strange Zen to the act... and as the two continued to move in and out of one another they found themselves lost in the act in some form of pleasure induced trance...

Sora was rising up and down on him now with limitless enthusiasm. As he continued to shake and writhe with pleasure.. She took all his control to make the act last... she just felt so good to him.. He gasped in blessed agony as he felt her hotness close over him with each movement... he studied her as she was making love.. She had a deep glistening layer of sweat which made her glow in the dim light... her hair was now wet and cascaded over her brow and shoulders in spiky little orange tendrils.. Her cheeks were flushed crimson now... the hue of a pinkish rose fresh to bloom... her soft and cute lips were hung open in a cooing, panting whimper of pleasure. The soft ruby eyes were glossed over by the pleasure she was feeling from within.. The pleasure he was giving her... he decided his favorite part of sex was the sounds... Sora cast out a wide variety of pitches and calls during the act... from the short little pants she made while they took a slight brake from the rocking, to caress eachother... the low moan Taichi had made it a point to try and hear as much as possible due to the fact that she only made that sound when she really liked what he was doing.. And the other sounds she made between the two... he could feel if she was happy with his actions or not...

He smirked at the idea that he probably mirrored her now.. The blush and the sweat he could feel on himself.. That plus a very large grin that had been forming during one of their brief intermissions to revisit some of the finer acts of foreplay they had previously done. Yet though they took small gaps in the act of rocking against one another, they always remained tied together... tai both looked forward to release, and feared it, for as they orgasmed he would have to pull out from her and end the act... something he knew was at hand.. This would be the last break before Taichi would send them both over the edge.. He knew he was barley able to keep going himself... and Sora was to the point she had stopped making words... she had been experiencing miniature orgasmic tremors for a while now.. Tai could feel it as she would temporarily clamp down on him, then whimper as she continued.

'It was time' he decided as he lifted Sora into his arms, then lowered her onto the pillows. She smiled softly to him through her fatigued and heavily pleasured features. Her hand found his cheek as she carefully pulled a leg from where it had previously been, careful not to break the link.

Her legs clamped down across his waist tightly. He smiled with her as they shared one soft kiss before beginning the final act of this dance. He was buried deeply within her... and as he moved to his knees Sora knew that he was ready to make her his completely.. And she had never wanted anything more....

He began pushing into her hard and fast with long and deep thrusts. Sora's eyes shot open as it dawned on her that he had been going slow on purpose, and now he was about to push to release, and bring her with him.. He thrust deeply into her as she began murmuring out his name over and over again. Tai was lost in the act.. He was no longer holding back... he was simply lost in a sea of pleasure and happily allowing each wave to crash over them. his hands were pressed against Sora's breasts, massaging and kneading them with both lustfulness and still a sense of love and tenderness... she felt a fire as it burned within her.. Within them.. Tai was grunting out with pleasurable moans as his hips bucked wildly during the final acts. Sora was calling out his name in a loud and thunderous redirect. Yet as tai was continuing to voyage ever closer to their release... he was mumbling out something under his breath... Sora could barley make it out, but she was finally able to hear what he was chanting lovingly to her. Words repeated over and over again as he made each trust inside her warm body... the words grew louder as he drew nearer and nearer to his release... The words were simple and yet as Sora heard him chant them to her it warmed her in a way no one had ever been able to do before. " I love you Sora..." he repeated over and over again.

Her mind suddenly screamed out in pleasure as she lunged for him and held tightly while she experienced her orgasm.. It was the most intense and incredible feeling she had ever known. It aroused her in ways she never knew possible.. It exited her, and amazed her, and proved to her that in at least one boys eyes she was beautiful... as Sora's body tightened as wave after wave of orgasm washed over her Taichi was pushed over the edge by his love's contractions. He felt white heat corse through him in a way he had never deemed possible.. His body lurched forward and gripped her tightly in a loving embrace as his shaft began violently pumping out his seed in spurt after spurt. He all but collapsed against Sora as each felt their bodies doing something completely new... they each had climaxed before.. But never had it been like this.. Part of Sora almost wished there was no barrier to stop Taichi's gift to her from filling her... yet they were unready for the resulting pregnancy... so Sora made a mental note that since Taichi and her would be doing this quite often she hoped.. She would have to look into other forms of contraceptives that would give her more freedom with the boy she loved.

They collapsed onto the bed, exhausted. Tai managed to pull from her and remove the condom with little effort.. They were no longer tied together, yet much to Taichi's delight he found in a way they were...something new Bound them as one... tai would never be able to explain the bond he now had to Sora.. But it was there.. They were one on the spiritual level..

Taichi laughed softly as he threw a comforter over both of their naked bodies. Sora cuddled up against him happily as she questioned what was so funny.

"Well.. I think soccer is no longer my favorite activity.."

Sora laughed. "Tennis is looking a bit on the dull side now too...."

"Umm.. Sora..."

"Yeah tai?"

"I want you to know how much I love you.. How much it was worth all the pain to have you now.. How.. You have completed me..." he whispered as he kissed her wet hair from her eyes.

"I know tai.. Do you know how much I love you? How much it hurts me inside to know that I was too wrapped up in matt to see the boy who really loves me... how good it feels to know that I am not alone... that I am a part of something so special and perfect... that.. My heart led me to you?" she smiled softly

" I know Sor..." he smiled as he kissed her once more.. He could taste the slightly salty sweat upon her skin.. Yet to him it was the sweetest nectar. She smelled so good... like flower petals recently cut...

They lounged like that for a time.. Just basking in the other's warmth and love.. Content in it... yet as Sora napped softly in Taichi's bed and arms she felt some bulge under the mattress... she tried shifting position several times... yet the lump remained a pain to her... she growled lightly as her hand snaked under the mattress to locate the offending object.. She came to what felt like papers.. She paled lightly as she closed them in her grip.. The odds of finding something innocent hidden under the mattress of a teenage boy were small to none... she sighed as she prepared herself to unearth some vast collection of adult books, magazines, videos, or perhaps just a giant bag filled with drug paraphernalia... she laughed at the image of tai being some drug dealing, sicko, pervert...

but still.. She debated what she would find... hopefully it would just be his journal or sketch pad.. In which case she would quickly move it. If it were something along the lines of a playboy she would do the same.. But of corse make a note to make fun of him thoroughly.. She chuckled evilly at the idea...

But what she found hidden beneath the mattress both shocked and terrified her... letters... and as she read them her eyes went wide in horror. They were suicide notes.. Tai had tried or planned to...

"Tai! Tai! Wake up right now!!" she snarled as she mercilessly shook him.

"God Sora... a gentle kiss would be a much more boyfriend friendly way of waking me up...." he rose slowly as he yawned tiredly.

He paused as his eyes recognized the notes.. He sighed sadly as his brown eyes met her enraged fiery eyes. "You weren't supposed to see those..."

"I would say not you idiot!! How could you even think of killing yourself!!"

tai was lightly alarmed as she managed to pin him to the bed board. She was a lot stronger when pissed... something he would have to remember so as not to get her angry enough to use this freakish strength she apparently had when she was not being as loving. He tried to stammer out words but found he couldn't.

"Dammit tai! If you had died..... god tai!! Do you know what it would have been like for every one!! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE FOR ME!?!?!?!" she felt hot tears running down her cheeks.

"Dammit tai... if you killed yourself... I would have too... even before tonight I would have killed myself.. I couldn't lose you Taichi....." she was crying hard as Taichi stared in shock. "Not you...."

"Sora... I was in a really bad place then... I was hurting all the time.. And that night was at my worst... but you saved me... it was because of you that I didn't shoot myself. I knew I couldn't leave you... no matter how much it hurt..." he rocked her softly in his arms.

he kissed her wrist that bore a faded scar that at one point was her own suicide effort... but something stopped her too... "Suicide is not romantic or a way out.. It only hurts the people you love... and we each get to know how close we came, because if we had... then we wouldn't get the chance to be together now... I love you Sora.. I couldn't live without you..." he whispered to her teary eyes.

She smiled softly...

"We each have our scars Sora... you wear yours outside.. I wear mine inside... but they are there, all the same..."

"Yeah they are.. But you know what?"

"What?"

"Scars fade away."

she replied as she kissed her boyfriend..

Her best friend...

her lover...

Her savior...

her Taichi...

life is a thing of mixed joys and sorrows.

We touch upon them both through our trek down the rode of life.

We are given a rare chance by god, or by whatever force fills our hearts with life

the chance to experience the greatest gift we could be given...

Yet the gift has a cost..

For each measure of joy there must be a shadow of sorrow..

For the love in our hearts we must know the hate

sometimes the bad outmatches the good

and in that scenario we are scared by life

yet With love, scars do fade

the end...